我可以忍受我可以忍受 你不够爱我
我可以忍受 你有别的梦
就算是编谎话哄我
至少你还在乎我的感受
我可以忍受 眼神的空洞
我可以忍受 你时间不够用
却不能忍受 做了那么多
是她拥有 我该得到的温柔
(是她拥有 我没看过的笑容)
爱着你 是我改不了
也不愿改的习惯
要放开 哪有那么简单
了解你 是我说不出
也不承认的悲哀
包容你 是我体谅的爱
别当作应该
Oh no no no 不要说 对不起
原来你要的不是我 (你要的是什么)
不要说 谢谢你
什么你永远在我心中 (你说的我都不懂)
Can you tell me why? (tell me why)
这样的我 你也曾爱过
不是吗 (不是吗)
with love @ 23:40
video called mrs pek using jiaqi's and ben's phone. she was really happy to see us i guess. took some pictures. but cable attitude me. so yarh, cant see. teachers' day celebration was not nice. especially the ye yu sheng singing. gosh larh~ and 2cm didnt win. so its disappointing.
talked to deardear for some time. i guess he is still not ready etc. i tried my best alr.
went eugene house with.. err, alot of ppl. took cab. ok, ben was quite gentleman to give we girls money to pay right. then this eugene made us wait so long cos we took separate cabs. his maid was nice to let us eat first and stuffs. she is not as bad as he said what. but one thing is that she give the food serving always very big one. iyo~ after that played CS. ben was my shifu? dots. is i clever ok? ;p i stil quite excel in map_fair ok. ley and xuan played too. its fun. when i won, i was really excited. maybe they were right. online games do help bring you out of something a little. but well, i wont do that. i always discriminated online games. so was too carried away till we were late for the 3.40pm movie. that host isnt good. the girls alr dont intend to watch lerh. so ley and rin went off and left the rest at west mall. we were actually mao dun-ing whether to still continue the show. took i think 30mins lorh. cos the guys wanna compromise to the girls. me and xuan dont want so late one. but in the end also watch evans almighty for 5.40pm. in between got alot of probs about the tickets one. dont wish to elaborate. but rin saved the day.
the show was really funny. noah's ark? HAHAH. its so scary when the ark was sailing through the city? iyo~ nice nice alert. but the show is $9.50. and its at eng wah. kinda not worth it. zzz so after movie, rin faster rush off cos got tuition. then all of us went home. took 106 with eugene, ben and xuan. ben promised he would send me home before the movie. lucky he kept his promise. so the two guys sent me home. its late. reached home at 8plus. like last night like that. hai~ dont like. i dont think my phone is spoilt? when the msg ringtone rang, i hestitated cos i was kinda afraid. but, ..
whatever,
i only wished i could spend o2 with him.
im only thinking if he could feel my love.
actually i dont know which is the real me.the noisy one or the quiet one?i know i cant act.maybe, would you mind do some good to let me rely on you just for this period?sorry
with love @ 22:22
i had a singing marathon today. LOL' one hour plus sing non-stop. i simply love singing can. basics test was kinda nonsense. cos like, dont know anything about the savings thing etc. iya~ my brain dont wanna tell me what happened in school alr. i forgotten. =x
after sch went jp with rin and xuan. we want to buy teachers' day present for pek and eng eng. longjohn was a really full meal. very vey full i can say. then we start to hunt for presents. kiddy palace was first stop. was very fascinated by the things there. was really talkative throughout the journey. they quite irritated i guess. so i say give me a pacifier to stop me. haas' got pek's present. those baby thing. hahah. then xuan say she got a surprise to give me. and tadah ~!

its an elmo pacifier ok? &&& i will bring it out and when they find me irritating, i will use it. dont think i joking. i dare use one ok. xuan is so so so nice. wahahaha.
was kinda difficult getting eng wee's present. cos must be nice and good and blah and blah. so like pho came and meet rin. then after awhile they went off cos rin got tuition. so left me and xuan to hunt the present. hai~ was walking up and down and left and right. almost every corner also combed lorh. then bought this baby gift set. alot of things was going on too. my mood wasnt quite rightly tuned. was kinda frustrated i guess. cos i got another gift to trouble too. reached home only at 20.15. its late. really late. had been walking for dont know how long. finally got all the presents done. very relieved. phew~ can rest alr. and mummy was very angry that i didnt eat her dinner. she say she shouldnt have rush to cook dinner and stuff. i alr apologised but she kept ranting. and scolded me with vulgarities. yeah, i got my education from my parents. i angry until wanna cry. but tears didnt fall. tsk, i dont wanna be vulnerable ok!
teachers' day tml. means slacking time right. ok, i want another singing marathon. and there is 2CM! (; oolala~ and my posts word count has seriously dropped alot. like how all my brain cells counts dropped . zzz
i got a boyfriend.he is down.but i will pull him up.he is drifting away.but i will pull him back.he is cold.but i will make him warm.he is in a dilemma.but i know he will make the right choice.he is running away.i will run faster than him.he is in love.and so do i.i got a new boyfriend.and thats myself.
with love @ 22:24
ok, i started my day with laughters and nonsense. this should be the way i should be.. and rin too. received the emaths paper 1 that i did last week. and i passed! HOORAY ok? its like 56%. i cant believe that lorh. hahah! yay yay yay =D
chinese was disappearing game again. the guys are practically childish larh i can say. so lame derh. play so long also not sian one. LOL'
jane chng class was very entertaining today. cos we were talking about the smelly donut. LOL! me and rin was like so pissed off larh. encountered a pervert. ee yer. hate it man. disgusted !! ben dio own alot of times by alot of ppl siah. LOL' alert. jane chng helped me attacked him. oh yes.
maths focus was not very focus. after knowing the paper i do before, then no mood do lerh. went to toilet to relax. but xuan stayed and watch over me. zzz but i know she worry larh. LOLOLOL!
thanks daddy, er mei and xiao mei for accompanying me so long right? actually toilet is not smelly one =x
i dont know why recently my posts so short. aint i an essay freak girl? dots. maybe ppl will like these short posts more barh. BYE
now i know what kind of love you want.i wont pressurize you anymore.i will follow your way of love.even if i am not held tight.can I LOVE YOU still helps?
with love @ 22:27
just came back from the lunar 7th month dinner. got alot of food. ever see ppl gorge themselves to digest their sorrows? i guess i was doing so. im bloody bloated now. and it was super boring. i nearly fell asleep =x food was my only entertainment.
i was given the title of 'essay girl' by someone. but today, i dont have the urge to type, although there are really lots of things i wish to blog. but maybe its better to have this post short and simple.
after some time, i then realised i could actually 放得很开.
i still remember that very day when i gave you my heart, i told myself it would be yours.
well , maybe this is a better way.
休息,是为了要走更长远的路.
i love you in any ways
with love @ 23:20
first period, found out that deardear haven completed his d&t folio. he said that the cd-rom was lost blah and blah. i said i was disappointed and i went back to my own seat. for the whole day, he didnt come and talk to me when i was expecting him to do so.
lucky during physics, jia parents made milk bottle and pacifier for entertainment. kept me occupied for some moment. but during recess, family was like talking about bias and unfair. iya~ i have no mood to talk right. so just stood up and go buy drink.
prawn said that there will be focus at 4.15 today and ask us to be there punctually. ley and rin got tuition every monday so i alr expected them not to go. i thought xuan and jia parents will go then but they said eng wee say they dont have focus. so like, i was mao dun-ing whether to go. no one in the family is going alr. if i go, i will be alone. although there is still melvin who can accompany me. but the situation between us its like.. i dont know how. so i was sitting outside the G.O thinking and thinking. they were asking me to call melvin and ask him if he going and stuffs. but you know, i dont dare to call, i dont know what to say. so by like 2.13pm i sms-ed him. giving myself a 7mins duration to make my decision whether to leave sch with them or stay in sch. as expected, i waited till 2.29pm when he replied. in the end, he told me to go do my own things. yarh, the ans is obvious. i left sch to jurong.
jia parents and xuan entertained me and stuffs. then me and xuan went popular to read some LOVE books. dots! some very nonsense one. then in aries, he msg me asking where am i. i told him and blah blah he said he was sorry for making me disappointed and stuffs and said alot of things. i asked him to take a bus to his house there derh bus stop then i wait for him cos our prob have to be solved today if not i cant go home peacefully.
he asked me not to wait and kept insisted that he dont want to meet me today and talk tml. he said he was too ashame and all those stuffs. so i told him i will wait until he surface. xuan see i liddat sure wont abandon me. so she waited with me. i was very anxious and very messy in the mind. xuan kept ask me to relax. 51s,143s,176s came one after another. when they came, i always kept my head down. xuan asked why. its because i dont know what expression i should give. everytime when the door opens, i was searching for the familiar pair of shoes on the ground. but time and again, i did not. it was xuan who alert me when she saw him in the bus. my heart was pounding real fast. yes, very fast.
he did not said much but sorry for most of the time. he thought i didnt trust him and stuffs about the d&t. i shan't say so much here. i did try control my tears but one still fell. i really dont wish to cry infront of him anymore. it seems like im so weak. and from his eyes i know he hate my tears. he left before i boarded the bus cos he was rushing. i kept look into his eyes and tell him i dont need anything from him.
reached home alr, he msged me. all the things just start again. i ..
i know im a weakling in love.someone who could not give you the right attitude that you want.you are well-liked, popular, that's a fact i cant change.i kept telling you i dont need anything from you cos what i need is 1oo% love.it will be impossible if i say im not worried at all about your relationships with other girls.but this goes to show that i care. and how important you are to me.when i know that im actually on the same status as that girl or whatsoever, i felt so dejected.i knew you are not good in words and that you cant commit yourself into relationships. but i dont mind.i clearly understand that im hard to tolerate, hard to please,when you think im always giving you nonsense.but always in the end, we would be happily joking again.for everything you had did, i never blamed you.cos i know its no point blaming another party in a r/s.i treated our love so crucial because im just too afraid that history will repeat itself.is this a wrong way to love? i tried all ways but i cant get it right.im saving my last bit of energy to love. wont you give me your hand?and how had it always been so hard for me to say this 3 words. now i say it, I LOVE YOU. and i really do.
with love @ 22:13

this was taken ytd. its carin and johnson. ahahaha. one was meddling with the abacus and another, calculator. i think its very funny can. cos johnson keep hurry me to bluetooth him the pic. HAHAH! i only took slightly longer what. zzz
mummy wanted to go walk walk at bugis today. so there we go. i woke up at like 12 ok. iyo~ then i saw this ELMO which can wriggle his hands, shake his bum and blah blah. && IT CAN SING! so darn cute and he wears an elmo shirt! it is $38 ok. daddy mummy of cos wont buy for me. cos i got so many elmos and on top of that, i also got TMX alr. so... yarh
bought clothes,shoes . . . heh heh. happy alert
then went to vivo cos .. *secret*
michelle was like wanting to take some pics. then mummy was like stick her head in. this is the first time she so enthu with us leah. LOL!




and i hate vivo's carpark. tsk
i know i am not good in love.
but i just wanted some ...
nvm, thats all for today.
with love @ 22:32
deardear came and fetch me go sch for physics class today. HAHAH. he bought me green tea and white choc ok. lalala~ jia parents were there before us then rin came shortly after me. mr lau had been quite stingy on the breakfast today. last week got more one lorh. zzz
was playing with the honey stars. then i used jiayi's hair to do some nonsense. HAHAH! it was too fragile to be an accesory though =x


jiaqi saw me doing it and she copied me! grr~ how can. copyrighted ok. hymph
after that went to clementi to buy food and eugene's maths tys cos we are gonna have tuition in rin's house. deardear was still in school playing when we left sch. he gotta go see the doc in the noon cos he got swollen eyes last night. his mummy insisted on bringing him. awww~ but he's ok this morning alr (;
was at bbs when he say he want buy donuts for me and come bbs to give me. LOL' i was surprised. hee hee. loves.
then eugene was like keep asking us to go his house instead blah and blah. and rin was tempted by the piano lorh. and yes, all of us took a cab to rin's house to collect her books then to eugene's house. eugene got a schnauzer! a really cute one! kept barking and hid in the kitchen. so cute~~ (;



my paper one was A2 ok? so happy larh. and i did the questions fast yarh. yay-ness. eugene and johnson started playing cs after we do finish. then they asked us to play. LOL' my first touch on online games right? =x
started off playing this map i think called the d_rats or something? rin won me. cos i got some prob with the directions. LOL' then played another one called the awp_map_fair? i am better than rin in this ok. LOL' was so high playing. but i wont get addicted or what right? online games wont catch my heart ;p
then caught a bus with johnson home.
watched CSS2 finals just now. benjamin was so attractive with the BLACK n RED outfit larh! and the songs he sang was so nice! and he got the highest 40points ok? was so happy and clapping non-stop. but SHAWN KICKED HIM OUT WITH ALL THE AUNTIES' VOTES! wahh~ was so disappointed larh. at first when keely got in alr very satisfied liao. then gave me such a shock. ARGHH~ and then, SHAWN KICKED KEELY OUT WITH ALL THE AUNTIES' VOTES again. tsk tsk tsk. wahh wahh wahh. what's this man. keely should be the winner larh. i mean she is better in all criterias? i dont know what the people are thinking. i felt like i had just wasted 210minutes watching something stupid. grrr~ freakingly disappointed.
with love @ 22:11
rin intro-ed me to this song from hairspray: I CAN HEAR THE BELLS. its nice and cute. hahah. i wanna master it by tonight (:
was doing essay in eng today. those who nevr complete it cant go for recess. and we have to write 600-800 words lorh. rin xuan ley finished before me and were able to pass the sensor. mine wasnt. she suspect mine haven meet the words requirement and asked me to count. indeed, it didnt meet. LOL' so rin they all say just anyhow say got larh. so funny. so we were like the first few who can go for recess? dots! the rest so ke lian. haiyo. so ley forsaked recess for d&t. poor ley ):
prawn was angry today. cos the d&t people wanted to do folio. so theyy intend to go eng wee class. prawn wasnt informed and was agitated. he thinks that we dont respect him. so asked rin to go up and ask them come down. zzz. he becoming more and more nonsense alr. cos mrs pek gone for maternity leave liao. that makes him our form teacher lerh! zzz.
was not feeling comfortable during maths. and the wind like hypnotising us to go and sleep liddat. zzz. me and rin were not able to take it lorh. hai~
after sch went formosa for lunch. this is also the time to meet eugene to pass back deardear's wallet. he had alr dragged for two days. and on account that he was being pranked too, i didnt hold it against him. those calls, nonsense and etc. i just forget about it. but he kept want come dont want come. like king liddat. i got so irritated lorh. i could just go report him. TSK! lucky xuan came to the rescue. she like got super power on eugene one. LOL'
lunch at formosa was entertaining with all the suan-ing of johnson, weichiang and elwood. most funny is johnson larh. oh gosh~ it makes us laughed till peng man. shan't say it here. he will be very lao kui one. HAHAH! then the guys went CC to play bball. i wonder deardear look better when playing soccer or bball. LOL' they kept delay the time till we were late for focus lorh. zzz
luckily eng wee didnt screamed at us. and still joked lorh. haas' did paper 2. wahh~ it was difficult ); then when the time is near, all of us ran away from jane chng focus. hahah
since it was early, rin suggested to go clementi mac to slack. and yes, deardear didnt wanna go but was pulled along by me in the end ;p
the pasar malam was opened alr. so we walked there. i was so excited cos all the toys stuffs will be there! YAY ! bought fried ice-cream. had been missing it for one year i guess. the one at clementi west st 2 was closed down ); walk walk also nth much. so rin say go bbs to buy file.
me and rin were crazy about the eyesoft notebooks. LOL! and i forced deardear to buy one and write. HAHAH!
after that all went home lerh. deardear hasnt been speaking after leaving bbs. i dont know why. then while on the way home, i then know. i did something that upset and disappointed him ); im so sorry.
he was talking about it then.. i saw tears glisten in his eyes and they gradually fell. i was at a lost. i didnt speak. i dont know what to say. just confort him. i was really shocked. this was the first time i see him so emo. i know he is worried about me. i didnt cry. controlled it well. i dont wanna cry infront of him again.
then after that he said alot of things to me. i dont know why. his words always got magical power to make me cry one. and you all should know when my tears fall, its a continuous thing. zzz. haiyo~ dont know why both so emo. he said alot of da dao li to me. iyo~ im not a small girl anymore right? i know whats right and wrong. i dont want him to get so worried over me. its so.. hai~ he is not good at words. so i dont want him to say anything. show it can alr (:
he called me his princess. i said i dont like. you know why.
there's physics focus tml and im going right. it was deardear who motivated me to study physics. without him, i dont think i will study lorh. HAHAH. and there's maths tuition from ms choo tml too. LOLOLOL' there are lots of students. she is so popular!
i dont know why am i so wilful and irritating. i hate to be a burden on you. and i am so hard to be pleased.but i know i had reached the point that i cannot refrain myself from loving you. there's nothing i can say but sorry.forgive all my nonsense. take my hand, guide me and stay with me.things will go your way.
with love @ 22:10
was doing f&n ws today. and we all know the answers so clearly right. impressed right? HAHAH. and i am the champion to those quiz games on net! wahahah~ i even guided nigel. heh heh heh ;p
assembly was performance from an accapella group. aww~ their singing was superb ! very nice! i wanna join them man. aww~ . but the performance was rather ruined because of this sec3 boy, steven. he go up stagew and act here and there larh. wahh piang. super bhb man. cant tahan larh. yuckssssssss
after sch accompanied xuan to the lab cos her coursework got prob. she was realy anxious and frustrated. lucky now the prob is settled alr. rin and jia parents went vivo to watch HAIRSPRAY. eee, no interest right? rin kept ask me to watch. zzz. so i spent my whole afternoon with deardear. he wanted so much for me to pei him right? (:
he brought me to 7-11 cos he wanna buy the mini chupa chups accessory for me! ytd while trying to pacify me, he said he will get me that. i thought he say for fun one. but he kept his promise. awww~ so nice (:

its ex man.. must buy 6 lollipops in order to get it. but its so darn cute right? oh my! anyone jealous? heex'
so took 198 to his house. i cooked noodles for him! hahah~ he say he dont know how to cook. zzz then when i was cooking, he said 'you want drink this?' then i turn over, he took out this box from the cabinet..

its a cocoa drink with marshmallows ok! i was so excited larh! i didnt know got such thing derh leah! its cocoa powder add water alr becomes like choco milk then another sachet is marshmallows. and you add in, its heavenly ! so yummy ok (;
i love deardear. he is such a tree! wahahah~ security is his hug!
and oh yes, today should be little pek's birthday right? hahaha. this is a happy thing right? =D
and i wanna add oil to those chiong-ing d&t . poor things );
with love @ 22:27
had bio prac today. it was rather fun. hahah. especially burning of biscuit. hahah. went com lab to play the NE game during history period. it was very fun ok? me and rin were so gan zhiong. we want this place and that place. LOL' but in the end, we still lost to jia parents. hai~ disappointed. CHANGI AIRPORT I LOVE YOU. hahahah!
got back graphical solution test. prawn said only one person fail. i didnt even think its me at all larh. then when he say my marks is 9/20. i was oh my.. this paper i know how to do one lorh. i thought i could pass one leah. at least a 10 one lorh. then the results liddat. go through the graph. that stupid cii !! WAHH~ i write out two steps alr still dont wan continue do. so dumb larh. and the x values also dont know how to read. GRR~ lost bloody 4 marks there! then for the speed time graph, rin told me my calculations wrong! my steps are correct one lorh! if i press the calculator.. OH MY. i would have gotten it. i cried for my stupidity when i know larh. this is so. . ARGHHH~ and for part a, i actually do the correct step and i cancel it away! DAMN IT LARH!
I LOST 7 MARKS IN TOTAL! i cant stand myself man. oh gosh~ kill me man. i dont like to be looked down by prawn one lorh. ARGHHH~~!! >=[
recess was the time to cool down. lucky i is can hold my temper well one. i am calm and firm right? chinese was so angry-frying. firstly, ley gave up listening to concentrate on d&t. ok, for this week i shall forgive her. then that tree leah! the hp so nonsense larh! grrr~ it got me so mad. at first was only disappointed cos only saw a little. then as many things unfold, i was so ~ gosh. and he told ley it was nothing big. it got me more sad. hai~ was practically no mood after tt.
had lunch and went for emaths focus. rin and accompany were so engross in HSM 2 larh. neglected me. hymph~! did paper 1. and i nearly completed all ok!? i was so glad larh. now i know why. cos im angry. angry cells motivated me to do. and eng wee was so kpo to wanna know why was i angry. after that went f&n. ms chin tell us some areas which we can improve. did the most easy one and i gave up alr. brain isnt working anymore larh. saddening.
so went to toilet with rin and jiayi. i didnt expect to see him at the study bench. i was surprised. but i didnt look at him. i dont wanna have eye contacts with him larh! grr~ me and jiay went staff toilet. come out tt time suay suay ms gan saw. wahh~ she very attitude siah. zzz did f&n quiz. i still rmb the content ok? ms chin was like wow. LOL' ;p
so like he say he will explain to me later and keep ask me dont angry and stuffs. ok, he is always not good at talking. zzz so like.. didnt talk to him throughout the whole afternoon. from after recess till 6 you know. see how long. he didnt even bother to say something. hai~
then at house there. he pi li pa la alot of words larh. he say he cant talk to me with all my friends around and stuffs. i dont know why his words although very nonsense but was still able to pacify me. aww~ this deardear arhh. i dont know what to say about him alr. stupid boy ;p
always make me give in one. he arhh, got magical power. hahah
reached home immediately kanna irritated by stupid ppl alr. i hate prank calls!! especially on issues that are so sensitive to me! damn those idiotic ppl larh! they are devastatingly childish. grr~ dont make me explode man. i can control my temper well one lorh!
with love @ 22:49
played badminton again today. rin wasnt interested and went for maths. zzz ley for the first time, played with us. HAHAH. and she enjoys it lorh. see larh. last week ask you play dont wan. bleah ;p then last min, philip wan came and played with us awhile. LOL'
halfway through recess, then realise everyone is copying lit. so of cos must chiong marh. chiong until bell ring siah. then go up, alot of ppl also chiong-ing lorh. so like all went in class very late. LOL' gave her hp first cos haven completed. its like so dumb. zzz but of cos i managed to get it back after class right?
maths was very funny. me and rin was like drawing stories. iya~ dont know how to say man. i had the sudden urge to draw one in paint one. but now, i dont feel like alr =x
had assembly today. talking bout smoking one. but i helped deardear with his lit right? so poor thing ); that day sick nv come sch also have to do. rin didnt came but she no need do. cos she is much more clever in avoiding ? hahah
during lunchbreak, had a war with ley. WAHH THIS GIRL! i only poured some water on her leg larh. then she took my phone and run into the toilet. after that still pour water all the way from my back to my skirt lorh. i was practically zao geng-ed ok. everything can see finish arhh. wahh~ i was so angry larh. grr~ >=( so we were like screaming and shouting at each other all the way to bio focus. got my jacket from deardear to cover it though. but alot of ppl saw it alr lorh. even eugene come and ask then say its obvious. zzz. this is so .. .. ..
but i didnt angry ley for long right. somemore she did apologise too.
so after bio, did the physics mcq. deardear one by one explain to me right? aww~ so nice of him. i understood them ok? (; then accompanied him n jiaqi to dance room to take their hp from jane chng. but we were standing outside looking lorh. cos they dont dare go in. zzz and i saw jane chng dancing . yucks.. so fat
so we went back class and pack our stuffs then go back again. this time they succeeded right? LOL' seal heng was late. so he went in himself. he dont know where was jane chng and walked one big round and got stucked in nowhere. cos the dancers are dancing and he just stand there dont know stun what. LOLOLOL! that scene was bloody funny larh. oh my..
then deardear sent me home. heex'
but after go home he called me down and ask me to lend him coins to take bus. he lost his wallet larh! iyooo. probably left it in focus room. hai~ dont know why so suay one. hope its in the class. if not.. .. hai~ );
dont know why recently the family members got some prob. emo? angry? nonsense? everyday one. zzz and its so sudden. also dont know how to handle man. hai...yarh, zhang nv ehh?
with love @ 22:34
ley was so not motivated and distracted during chinese. the compo she wrote few lines then gave up lerh. wahh~ i was so disappointed can. then deardear also like dont wanna do like that. grr~ need some discipline one leah. he depended so much on me for ideas lorh. hai~ and in the end, also never complete. zzz. hymph!
had physics practical. my gradient and stuffs all wrong man. aww~ whats this. tsk. JANE CHNG 's period was oral practice. notice why i emphasized her name? cos all my previous posts i had been spelling as JEAN. LOL'
i had no idea why too =x i dont like practice oral cos its so sian. zzz.
and someone was FIA-ing away. lucky got ppl alert me arhh. WAHH~ so angry.
oral waiting time was actually quite fast. with hongyi's lame jokes and all, time passes so fast. and finally its my turn. zzz. i think i did ok only. and the invigilator never give comments derh lorh. zzz
deardear had been waiting for me since after sch. so nice right? hahaha.
so like accompanied him go home. yeah (:
and i gotta edit f&n again. aww~ tired man ); sobs.
my eyes are giving me some prob. especially the left one. its blurrish. am i ill? oh gosh~
and im so disappointed in rin. she keep say me! ARGHH~ i didnt do it intentionally lorh. wahh~ liddat one.
when a guy laid his tears for you, you know how much he loves you.hold me tight cos you know i have no intention to goi just wanna stay with you. yes, stay with you
with love @ 22:07
last night donny was playing with his towel. hahah. he kept cover himself with it you know?
so cute larh. see..



so funny right? iyo~ my donny is so cute. heex'
deardear told me he very popular, got alot of girls like him. tsk. whats this. i feel so threatened. grr~
and tml eng oral. awww~ scared. sore throat haven recover lorh. thanks to mr tree larh. disappointed. he will suffer if tml oral goes wrong. zzz argh~
and oh yes. there's donut for tml! YAY~ its the milo one and its heart shape ok? ;p
AND DUE TO INSULTING COMMENTS, I CHANGED BLOG SONG ALR. SO PEOPLE, DONT PRESS THE CROSS LIAO LARH!! grr~
actually im still as vulnerable.
no matter how matured a girl is, when facing love, she is still weak.
with love @ 23:10
had a very entertaining chat with ben's brother, bernie last night. so funny larh. cos he very young then the words he say very funny one. LOL! and he made me and ben laugh our ass-ES out lorh. iyoo~ LOL!
morning deardear came my house fetch me go physics focus (; yay~ miss him lots ok? yarh, so we were the first ones who reached .. hahaha. he say why we so early when its not early lorh. zzz then after that dom wong came.. very little ppl only.. e3 ppl also came. add tgt like only ten? im the only girl for e4 and kemin was the only girl from e3. hahah.
the breakfast got alot today. break with nutella and peanut peanut butter. and still got alot of cereals. LOL' milk and juices too. LOL' like go there picnic one eehh. haas' mr lau taught P.O.M. heh heh. this one i understand ok? after that deardear went to play soccer with izuwan victor they all. and they played for 2hours ok? so nonsense. and the ze bumble bees players also one by one came. but not all larh. if im not wrong, they is every sat go play derh. but i wonder why deardear never arhh? hmmms~
was supposed to go for movie today with weichiang they all in the evening one. but alot of ppl cant make it so he say cancel and change to tml. but anyway, deardear also gotta go his grandma there today lorh. then i also dotn intend to go liao. hahaha. so yarh, doesnt make any difference.
after that deardear sent me home. LOL' my hse staircase like our second home. hahahahah. nonsense alert
and its freezing cold here. brr~ i want some huggies ;p
with love @ 22:13
ms chin asked us to edit or task analysis today. i cannot take it alr. im gonna give up. pass can liao. dots. practice eng oral in class today. seal was my partner right. his eyes cant see larh. so we sat infront of the scream. dots! and im better than him right ;p
deardear explained physics to me while we were doing the ws. hahah. and i know abit ok? ;p
had coordinate geometry test. i alot dont know leah. sob~ wonder if can pass anot. hai~
then had lunch and we headed off to np health science lecture. rin wasnt able to go cos she got oral. iyo~ sad
solastri and her 3n1 went too. and two sec5 guys. reached there and they gave us a goodie bag. zzz. inside nothing nice one. zzz. but there's this marble i spotted!

its blue and its very nice ok. among all of us, only i got it. the rest got the silver black one. and some people dont even got it lorh. im so lucky right? =D
and then i realise this coloured marble can entitle me to join a quiz to win another prize. so i joined right? haas'
this is when i was infront. xuan took it. LOL'

i answered the first Q which was bloody easy. they gave me a green pencil box. diao~ inside got one men deodorant. zzz. give me that for what siah. but i immediately thought of deardear. i will give him. hahah
after the lecture, we went to another room to test the BP apparatus. its so fun and we learnt alot right?

we were amazed by the stethoscope. LOL' i dont know spell correctly anot.
next, we went to various health science special rooms. got those labour one, operation one, blah and blah i forgotten.
look at this. can see the REMINISCENT CORNER? i was so alert by it. LOL'
and this is me and xuan reminiscing (; LOL' she is thinking of shoe im sure! ;p
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and this is me and ley drinking tea. LOL' so old old times.

took a picture with this cute dummie baby. LOL' very funny horh.

and this is all of us (; loves. someone is missing though. LOL'

so like we were suppose to leave there ourselves. the hs block was so inside that we dont know how to walk lorh. so anyhow walked and walked wrong side. solastri they all followed us and so, also have to detour and walk another way. LOL' they thought we know the way out.. when we dont =x
thought could meet deardear after this. but he went out with rin, leslie they all to westmall. zzz
i was... eehh,i dont know? dots.. he was regretting larh. but its ok right..im not pretty without the R.
accompanied xuan go kfc buy her dinner. then all of us went home.
lalalala~ deardear said he want go physics focus tml. so im gonna go with him (; he will teach me right? evening gonna watch 'secret' vivo. nonsense lorh. its at 6.30pm. what nonsense is this man. zzz dont like. somemore i have no interest in this show one. zzz if kanna lousy seats again, i will scream the hell out of my throat to them!
with love @ 22:25
finally completed f&n in class today. used like 1 and half period to finalise everything. hai~ wonder what marks i will get. but im really too tired to do f&n liao ); spent rest of the time singing with rin's ipod. this eugene say i noisy larh. WAHH~ what man. this is your pleasure ok. grr~ so then was recess. had spagetti
basics was playing time again. i dont know which guy started the disappearing game first. i think is eugene? he hid melvin lim's bag at the very behind the corner. LOL' then the guys also like pass here pass there the things. iyo~ so lame larh. whole class was laughing like what. even pek too. iyoyoyo. melvin lim so ke lian man.
then was maths. had graphical solutions test. did all the questions i know then just go sleep. only woke up when times up. dots! didnt even check the paper and do again lorh. iyo~ dont know will fail anot. zzz and prawn called deardear AH BANG. LOL' he wanted to say AH BENG ok. but with his short tongue..LOL' hard larh. whole class was like laughing lorh.
after ft period, eugene was being rude to pek. then they had conflict. pek was unhappy so called eng wee to come and settle. justin was so man to stop eugene from being rough. LOL'
so it was after sch alr. ley was like so excited cos its happy meal time. HAHAH. deardear promised to buy me happy meal one. so he went with us too (; was at wcp. cos there then got the toy we want.
and tadah ..

this was the toy all of us got right? its so cute right? HAHAH
after eating, went to see the mccafe. asked rin to treat me mushroom strudel. cos that time i treated her donuts right? haas' and then she saw this drink call 'fluffy'. its warm milk with marshmallows. it got me so interested larh. so i wanted it. xuan insisted that she pay for me. iyo~ LOL' then rin was like wahh-ing away and looked so interested too. so i said i will treat her to a cup. HAHAH. so lame larh we. yarh, so this is our FLUFFY (;


the marshmallows are at the side counter for us to put ourselves one. noticed that one cup got some brown brown thing? xuan saw this container with brown brown powder and she tell me its cocoa powder. so my instinct is go add right. then after that when ley tried, we then realise that thing is cinnamon powder larh! ohh man~ at first when i smelt cinnamon i still thought its the normal smell you know. wahh~ drank abit then cant tahan liao. was near the busstop when xuan say she help me pour the milk off and let me eat the marshmallows. unfortunately the bus came and the driver attituded. grrr~
xuan was apologising for the cinnamon powder. LOL' its ok larh. also cant do anything liao marh.
and deardear didnt even ate lunch. disappointed.
went combined humanities focus. saw charine chai there flirting with the bunch of guys larh. treat the rest as invisible one leah. wahh~ she steady siah. whats this lorh. dont know we go for what. zzz after she gave us some work to do, she gave us refreshments too. deardear finally got eat liao. LOL' before the class start i told him i will feed him my mushroon strudel. how can this underweight boy dont eat right >=(
rin asked me to accompany her awhile to wait for time to pass cos her tuition only starts at 7. so like this leslie say want send her all those. but in the end also never lorh. zzz jiaqi,ley and xuan stayed with us too at the canteen. all of us were like eating our mccafe. HAHAH and deardear is so guai to finish what i gave him. good boy right (; then the family was there making fun of us lorh. wahh~ disappointed leah. pai seh larh. grr~
gonna go for np health science thing tml. rin cant go cos she got oral. good luck alright. today dont need chiong f&n. phew~ so tired alr. cant pei deardear tml cos he got oral. awww~ i miss that stupid underweight boy );
with love @ 22:41
slept at like 12 last night but was still really tired this morning! disappointed. was doing f&n last night. forcing myself to be awake lorh. shag.
was very afraid of bio prac. cos its first period and im so unconscious. luckily it didnt turn out as bad as i thought. the prac was pretty hard. especially part c );
then like tried so hard to stay awake during history. it was bloody hot in there also lorh. me and xuan was there wanna die liao. aww~
maths was also killing me. hai~ i want sleep larh.
lucky recess got eat. made me feel more energetic. chi i was awake again. LOL' those who wants to retake chi Os have to do chinese compo. since i got nth to do, rin asked me to help her with her lit tuition work. i was so nice right? apart of that, i also helped ley, leslie and deardear with their compo lorh. &&& if deardear and ley never get b3 arhh. im gonna spank them up down left right center arhh! ;p
this deardear ought to be disciplined man. so many basic words dont know how to write. somemore still there play with leslie. grrr~ stupid boy!
so was chiong-ing lit in jean chng class as usual. she have to leave at 1 for oral. so we were there waiting. but she like die die dont want go liddat. stayed till 1plus lorh. even got someone come up find her. tsk. whats her prob. keep stressing us one.
maths focus was a headache too. did paper 2. aww~ i alot dont know how to do leah. very saddening lorh. i dont know prelims how. sadd. then went for f&n focus. wahh~ hell is coming. deardear got nth to do. so i asked him along. hahah~ he was kanna shoot by chin. haas'
was really disappointed when i see back my task A file. alot of things never edit and undone lorh. hai~ i cant take it liao man. gotta chiong it now again! ARGHHH~ bye larh. wish me good luck.
AND ! deardear, i want my happy meal x)
with love @ 22:10
deardear didnt came sch today. i know he fever but he didnt say he not coming. made me so anxious during assembly. zzz stupid boy larh! then after that he replied my msg. thats better right. made me so worried. was having lotsa fun during pe. we played badminton! hahah! double. jia parents vs me and xuan. me and xuan won ok? ;p pictures..



was very engrossed in playing. jiayi dont know how make the shuttlecock stuck in the tree. then i used the racke to try get it down but also stucked. then jiaqi use ball, also stucked! DOTS! only xuan never stuck anything lorh. and jianqing was the saviour for all these items. haas'
we even eat into our recess time just to play. funny right. very long never play until like this liao. was perspiring like crazy. whole body so wet. somemore the weather is alr so bad liao. wahh~ damn disappointed man.
i felt like stripping. LOL =x we thought jean chng wont come at first. but her appearance disappointed us. zzz. need to do some lit character thing and most of us dont know how to do. so in the end do wrong. zzz redo a little bit then bell ring liao. haas' glad that she is good to not collect today. if not arhh.. whole class sure die one lorh. zzz
and maths was nth. i was so dehydrated. i want some bing shan! leslie gave me $0.60 to buy water. hahahah.
weixing showed me and ley this rugrats toy keychain that is given in happy meal. we love it alot lorh. its so cute. so we decided to have happy meal today (: so after bio focus, we went off with xuan. mr lau saw us leaving but also never pul us back. he knows some kinda thing cannot force larh horh. LOL'
to our disappointment, clementi's mac dont have that toy. grr~ we were all so disappointed larh. sad~
so ate some nuggets, fries blah blah.
was missing deardear so badly today. he fever made me so worried. so like after mac, went his house to see him. im so nice right? (: so like took 99 there. ok, his place i still not familiarised lorh. so walked quite long to finally reach. lucky his fan power right. hahah (: and he missed me like crazy too ;p
ok there's something i wanna express but im afraid i would be shoot by ppl. very tired to deal with this alr. somemore also no time alr. gotta chiong f&n! ARGGHH~! save me someone.
with love @ 22:19
5days never go school and my hair attituded me. was meddling it for very long yet cannot tie a nice one. so in the end just use a clip and clip it. dots! on the way to sch, dont know why, my hp strap elmo dropped off from my phone. lucky i realised on time. phew~ what suay day is today man.
was feeling really hungry this morning. last night ate very little only =x so like in chinese, im like so crazy searching for food. pink dolphin, sweets, these cant stop the hungry cells though. my stomach was bu lair bu lair-ing. LOL' so like, i was playing with rin's bag and gey gey wanna eat. ley kinda dared me to really bite it. AND YES I BIT IT! SHE WAS SO SHOCKED . haha. and i continued for a few times. ;p
as i had nothing to do, i took deardear, rin and ley watches to wear. very funny. they each symbolises a sandwich ingredient. LOL' the surroundings was like keep talking about food larh. tempt me like crazy. zzz.
physics that time pek came with the results of O levels chinese. HAHAH! all of us was so excited larh! and i got
1 D ! ARHH! so happy can?!!? =D so my suay-ness is gone? LOL' this mr lau congratulated me. i bet he all along looked down on me one lorh. wahh~
so its finally recess time. ive been counting down since chinese lorh. LOL! chiong go buy chicken rice. the auntie bias larh! serve those malay boys first when i alr ordered mine lorh! grr~ was like eating halfway then the lights were off.. WAHH~ so disappointed. cant even enjoy my food. so hungry one larh! ARGGHHH!
jean chng period really can drive your crazy man. her work arhh.. forever cannot finish one. piang~ was chiong-ing like mad woman lorh. wahh~ utter shag-ness );
after that is maths alr. which is what rin had been eargerly waiting for. HAHAH!
but prawn left hte p&c results till the end. zzz
and i forgotten to bring my coordinate geometry ws! grr~ its in my emaths file. shit it man!
so yarh, its finally here. prawn said that those who did badly int he previous test did well this time. so i said, is it me? LOLOLOL! and indeed! i got 19/25. i think is 2nd highest ok?!?!? YAY! THREE CHEERS PLS!
then when he say rin highest, 21, me ley and rin clapped and laughed like crazy. cos rin won 4 f&b right? ahahaha! so funny larh.
since today no focus, me amnd xuan went je for kobayashi. siah larh. dont know gian how long liao. waited for this chance until neck long liao. LOL' and i made some comment about her maths file which made her so pissed right? hahah. sorry alert. dont angry larh. doraemon will be there tml larh. and oh yes! she bought me an ELMO MECHANICAL PENCIL! rocks larh you. hahah (; kobayshi was nice. yummy yummy (; then we walked walked around. bought hair clip for that attitude hair. then we went to print out the neoprint that father hand itchy itchy make until like what one. haas' yeah, spent quite some time in that shop cos of ahem. who larh horh. LOL' had deardear waiting at the bussstop. sorry right? ):
then this rin called and ask me to help her go popular buy amaths 5years series. WAHH~ girl, if you are reading this, pls think back from that busstop to popular how far ;p where's my commission? and she described the book until like what. i completely had no idea lorh T_T
so deardear pei me go. he was the one who found the book ok? and is last book alr. rin! u must thank him too arhh! haas'
then after that accompanied deardear home. stayed for awhile watch tv blah blah. hahaha (;
we had been missing each other badly for the past 3days! lalala~ loves
i wanna slp in your arms... ;p
&&& MARCUS WILL GET KICK OUT TONIGHT! BENJAMIN GO!
i cant believe i even worthed lesser than a cup of drink to you. i really wonder what am i in your eyes? a pure entertainer? someone whom you can gladly joke about among your brothers? how much does these cups of drinks mean to you? and who was the one who landed me in this state? i thought you should be the one to stop all these. at least on account of all those years? you think i love 1 . 2 - 3 that much? freakingly disappointed. you sucks left right up down centre! this is how formidable you are *claps*
with love @ 22:26
stayed at home did nothing today. wtch phoenix rising last episode. its quite a nice show larh. haas'
had dinner at IMM. saw xuan and her friends there too. mummy wanted some sushi. so we have the ichiban. there was a long Q. Q-ed for around 15-20mins i guess. yeah, ate alot lorh. very full leah. LOL'
then you know, mummy thought the waiter alr write down how many plates of sushi we eat alr. so she just take the paper and head to the cashier. it was $36.95. LOL! by right should be like $65 lorh! we ate $28+ on sushi you know? LOLOLOL! when i realise they didnt charge the sushi, i was laughing and pulled my sis out and run away. LOL' mummy still stood there dont know what happened. so we hurried her out. LOLOL! and we chiong-ed to the carpark larh! gosh~ i was laughing like siao zabor can. iyoyo~ so like calculated and realise we had a discount of 43%. LOL! not 42% arhh? HAHAH. wahh~ laugh till peng man. stomachache arhh. haas'
so its like.. the below is FREE ;p

hahahah. are you jealous? cheapest jap food i had.
btw, changed the pic of my blogskin again. think the previous one not say very nice. haas'
my sis say my blogskin always the same one. im trying to improve ok? im quite dumb in html marh. zzz
ok, gotta spend my night on blogskin. BYE~
and my dear xiao mei, cheer up ok? our hands are here to replace that stinky one!
with love @ 22:30
i thought what we had once did was really alot, although the time was short. but after today, i realised what we had did were nothing.
one year later, i stepped into the place which brought back so much memories. memories that i hadnt been wanting to face.
this time, with him holding me, i asked myself where are memories supposed to be kept in?
and i came to a conclusion - deep deep down inside. and dont let them surface again.
one year ago, i stopped you from making me have another item as memory now. im glad.
sweetness of a relationship only happens in the beginning. like marshmallows. they are so sweet. but there's an expiry date to it sweetness too. my dear, i would be contented that our sweet love will last more than two months which had not ever happened before. because the more i feel loved, the more i feel that everything is ending. would you say it isnt so?
i suddenly feel so no confidence.
once bitten twice shy.
with love @ 23:53
deardear came my house and we headed to ps for movie with weichiang,elwood,seal,dom,horse,leslie and rin. HAHAH~ thats alot right? (; he came quite early so we were like waiting for 2trains to go then take the third train. LOL' thats lame =.= reached tiongbahru and he suggest if we should go out and wait for weichiang.
then after we get out and called him, he is reaching outram!! i guess he took the train we alighted lorh! grr~ felt so punked. deardear was there sorry-ing. cos i told him we will be later alr. i dont like late let ppl wait one =x
well, nvm larh. i not so petty one ok? reached ps and only saw leslie, weichiang and dom. the rest haven even reached yet! zzz stayed around in the arcade and waited for the rest. rin was the last one. wahh~ this girl arhh. the tickets for rush hour3 was selling fast so dom was very gan zhiong. LOL' he there give the face arhh, iyo~ dont know how to say man. the Q was long then some of us haven eaten. so we went ljs eat. dom was not hungry and suggested he go buy the tickets for us. LOL' gan zhiong siah. btw, seal brought his primary sch friend, darren along. haas' we were so disappointed when we knew that dom bought tickets for the FRONT ROW!! GRRR~ $9.50 for front row. wahh wahh. all of us were there kpkb-ing. deardear and leslie wanted to go play pool. so rin said that the place beside park mall got place to play pool. and so, we walked there. after that, the security guard say the place shifted to angmokio alr. ask us take cab. LOLOL? wahh~ we were scammed by rin. btw, when we were on the way there, we took a pic with the big LOVE.

so the guys say we came here just to take a pic. LOLOL!
then rin say meridan hotel got alot of place to play pool. and we believed her again and go.
we checked out the directory then realised that second level got alot. so, we took a lift to second floor. walked one round, DONT HAVE. then we were all like. WAHH~ DIO SCAMMED AGAIN. rin didnt gave up and continue the search. AND THEN! we saw the counter when we looked at the directory earlier on! LOL! CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT WE, AT THE 2ND FLOOR, TOOK A LIFT TO 2ND FLOOR? LOLOL!! LMAO MAN! iyo~ then rin found a place for pool at the corner. unfortunately, it was full. so didnt get to play. didnt wanna wait too. cos it was alr 3 and our show is at 4.
went to toilet and took some pics (:


AHAHAH. its red and white today again! rin was supportive right? i pressured her to wear. LOL'
then on the way back to ps, me and rin bought donuts. the shop was quite big and there were alot of variety. rin bought the cream nut which she claimed to be not nice. she gave it so horse when she dont want!! LOL! ALERT~ i bought white choc one. is in flower shape ok? so unique larh.

when we went into the cinema, two banglah sat in the middle of our ten seats. we told them is our seats and they said is their seats. zzz so we showed them out tickets and ask them to show us theirs. and, LOL' after some time of searching, we saw the tickets and their show is in cinema TWO!! iyo~ i bet this is the first time they watch movie siah. so gong one. dots. the show was nice and funny. although the seats was a little ___. really very funny man. you guys should go watch it! (;
after that we were standing outside the arcade thinking where to go and stuffs. rin, dom they all wanted to go esplanade and watch fireworks. but not everyone wanted. seal and his friend went off. elwood too. so deardear said he was going, so i go also lorh. in the end, the rest of us all agreeded. LOL' rin is happy right? and i dont like to be involved in everything about my sister! grr~ not my prob also become my prob. rin too. we were so frustrated. zzzzzz!
she went to meet chelsie IN the mrt station. what a hassle. poor rin. walked awhile in ps then we WALKED to esplanade there. dont know who suggested walking siah. leg damn tired. on the way, we saw these few statue sitting there so me and rin want to take pic. haas'

that place was quite dark so cant really see properly =x
was like ard 8pm when we reached a grass spot where everyone is gathered there to watch the fireworks. took some pics since haven start. LOL'

this pic very funny right? ITS SO TREE CAN? the behind got alot of trees which i didnt noticed. then after rin helped us took a pic with her night mode cam, i then realised behind got so many trees larh. iyo~ very funny.

ok, this is blur. weichiang or johnson took it. lousy ;p

this was well taken cos its taken by me ! ;p
and after those pics, the fireworks started! its so nice!

click for bigger pic ok? haas' like rin said, its so romantic. fireworks sehh. hahah. yeah precisely, i felt so loved. hahah ;p
went SUNTEC, carl's jr to eat. idiotic place. well, the burger there is really big like dont know what one lorh. i wonder how the guys ate the whole thing. dom was the last to get his burger and the first to finish. somemore his one is the biggest. wahh~ steady arhh. then dont know who suggested to play zhong ji mi ma. so then we played. deardear kanna the first one and was to eat the pepper and salt fries. second round, leslie go add alot of nonsense sauces which is damn disgusting larh. liquid was leaking out from the corner somemore. and suaysuay, i kanna ok?!?!?! grrr~ but deardear helped me ate it. LOL' so nice of him (;
then we walked all the way back to city hall mrt. thats so far. leg aching alr. zzz
leslie they all stopped weichiang from getting down at tiongbahru. LOL' so funny. and he really missed the stop. haas' deardear sent him home. was like 10plus when i reached home. finally can rest alert.
while i was out, daddy opened the letter box and saw a letter. it was the love letter deardear sent ok? he didnt write to who so my daddy just opened and read. zzz! wahh~! i was like so dont know what to say when michelle msged me man. grrr~ no surprise liao. and i felt so invaded in my privacy. zzz
people who knows me really well will know y i feel so dread to go suntec. but you held me by the hand, walked me to the place, brought me out from my past. MY DEAR MR MELVIN CHIA SO KNG, i love you ;p heex'
he should be tired since he 11plus in the morning came out alr, and reached home at ard 11 at night. its like one day lorh. and he say he not tired. iyo~ this boy arhh. arbish~
&&& i wanted to post something funny about rin and dont know who one. but i forgotten! idiot~ this brain at this juncture give me this prob. angry man! and she dont wanna tell me what was it. ARGHH~
gotta stay home for the next few days with michelle liao. zzz. sian-ness. 3days );
with love @ 23:08