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went jp today. main motive was to get kemin's birthday present (;
so like was in toys'r'us. its a must to visit if i come across it one right? ;p
then saw this big elmo. press it's tummy and it will speak !


so cutee~! 50dollars. anyone? haas' =x

actually nothing much to say today also. oh yes. tommorrow is childrens' day!
心点 心点 !!我是个快乐的小孩～ i want some 心点.
and i bought 心点 for family too right? loves-
i am very young at heart ok. & i am super nice!

and my uncle deardear will pacify tomorrow? i hope he really does uhh. if not spank his buttock. LOLOL! ;p
thats all. bye!

something nonsense happened during f&n and english today. family larh. kept sabo me and nigel thing. then he utter rubbish. say what dont force me. he will go and find another one. i was like =.= somemore that ben so gay. spout nonsense anyhow one. zzz now like whole class talking about it? so stupid.
then maths happened again. that stupid ben talk rubbish talk so loud scared nobody hear like that. then this nigel go say him. so LOL' larh. he ask ben leave me alone and say i dont desire him. like, WTH? oh gosh can~ zzz then got back overall results. i passed science!! 50 leah. so happy. then maths got C5 instead of C6. i think moderation? hahah. yay-ness. L1R4 17 now (; nearer to 15 liao. YAY YAY.

so after sch, ben rin xuan and ley went raffles cos ley want buy thing then they will be going sakae with weichiang and company after that. wahh~ this rin. always say dont want go but in the end also go one. i buy prepaid buy until so broke now. sadden~ jia parents dont know what happen. say disapointed with the daughters. but i dont rmb me doing anything lorh. zzz how can like that one derh.
so went to see dear play bball. he so li hai (; hehheh. alert.

after eugene came, we left. then they all went sakae. so dear sent me home. walked halfway he say he ankle pain. so i ask him sit under one of the void deck fro one minute. but i sit until so comfortable dont want go. dots! then ronnie teo and chan mali chan come and say us! WAHH~ so angry. say wear sch uniform be more decent and blah blah. whats the prob larh. that ronnie teo face so black. yucks. hated him since cca open house. he has got more irritating larh. grr~ so like dear was entertaining chan mali chan. ronnie teo was talking to someone. i was very pissed. so don care them. zzz. nonsense larh.

after reached home, sent dear to busstop again. LOL' its quite stupid right =x
oh my mama. i miss him. bleah~

sian-ness. morning rained again. dont know whats the prob larh. zzz. so ley overslept and rin's bus is delayed. rin asked me to go in first. but its like.. so weird. so she asked me wait for her awhile. LOL' was staying in the toilet ok. so nonsense. zzz
and yes, dear helped me keep my umbrella again. haas' (;

after recess got a course about social, dining etiquettes and personal grooming blah blah. took 3hours ok. zzz. was quite nonsense and funny larh the course. but the lab is so bloody cold. brr~
after school went kfc with family plus ben, elwood and dear. the family dont know why suddenly so crazy. want the two couples to kiss infront of them? dots! so ben and rin did. its like so nonsense larh. then went dear kissed me, they claimed that they didnt saw. zzz dont know why they so high siah. then weichiang and seal came. they like couple siah. LOL' sit tgt one.

got a free cheese fries and bandito pocket cos the crew so stupid one. LOL' the scene between ley, rin and jiayi is like so alert? LOL' then rin got the crave for the fiery lime drumlets. i told her its not spicy but i think it does to her. oops =x sorry right.
then the kiss thingy started again. rin and ben french-ed? but i didnt saw. LOL' as i was eating, so didnt let them have a free show right? LOL' dont know why dear so on one. zzz. so pai seh one leah.
and so ley and jia parents took pictures of we two pairs of couple. dots. alert?



the pair of hands belongs to jiayi and ley. dotsdots.

then went home. accompanied dear to the busstop cos.. i suddenly feel like spending more time with him? since he tml got tuition cannot pei me. );
&&& he is getting jealous. he say i too nice liao then ppl like me. firstly was the ben issue. then now he say even nigel also like me. its like. ermm, nigel's issue isnt some nonsense caused by rin and ley? why now sounded so real arhh? and this nigel today so funny larh. ask me if i like him. its like??!!?!??! GOSH~

and im angry now. i didnt know my prepaid no money larh. msg dear halfway =.= this sucks like hell. im officially broke alr. no money eat sakae. siansian. hp is a major factor to the burnt of wallet.


MY SILLY BOY; I LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU (:

this is today's horoscope.

The Bottom Line
Today, take your time and don't rush out to buy things today. Haste makes waste.

In Detail
In a business or school project, you will notice a big problem early in the day ... the good news is, you will have plenty of time to tackle it before the big deadline. Organize your approach and don't just pull apart everything and start over again. There are small adjustments you can make that will solve the problem, so take your time and don't rush things. In your private life, conflicts are starting to settle down today and it looks like everyone is back to loving each other again!

noticed the bold ones? sian~ why so zun one. but i dont think everyone is back to loving each other again?

charine chai gave me a box of merci as reward for top scorer for combined humanities (; actually nigel scored the same as me but since he cant eat chocolate.. then.. hahah. yeah (;
recess was funny. rin got tempted by shannon's bowl of kway teow. and thus, me and her shared one bowl. LOL' she break fast at such an early time yeah? and somemore she ate mooncake earlier in class lorh. what kind of fruit fast is this i wonder. dots!

and in case i forgot. got back amaths paper1. 2/80. ok, its super super nonsense. i nv got such marks before larh. zzz. so i request to join the warriors. LOL' eng wee say i must get b3 for emaths. then this prawn come say. 'what b3? MUST A2 !' ahem~ alert. A2? gosh~ rin will be my saviour!!

chinese was so nonsense. that teacher also dont know why so particular about seating arrangement one. zzz. so those who nv sit at original place just anyhow write names? LOL' andy lau, lily yeo and xiao ming. LOL! were some nonsense names larh. HAHAH. then the class got back their chinese paper. actually have not finish angry with this tree. but really wanna know his results. so go walk over his there and see. dots' alert. he just passed. hmm~ 2grades more to b3 ok. and yarh, i was the peacemaker between weichiang and rin's conflict right. thank me ok.

know the overall results for english. 56. c5. i think first time get c5 leah. always is c6 one. but my target is b4 ok. after doing the nonsense copying of lit. wrote this target thingy. LOL'

must work hard for Os right. 151515151515!!

after lessons went to talk to tree. grr~ so does this consider that i gave in? why everytime like that one. i dont know why );
yeah, so as usual, SORRIES are flying all around. then suddenly he ask me on bluetooth. say wanna send me something. and tadah~!



ok, i think its sweet. do you think so too? he said he went out middle of the night to make it and even burnt his fingers. ok larh, on account of that. spare him off. haas' i think its kinda hard to write chinese words with wax? hee hee. loveloves (;

then went to je to eat with xuan rin and ben. xuan pester very long alr. dots. and since rin and ben are on cold war. i persuaded them to go too. so me and xuan can help them peace right? and indeed. under our miraculous power, they are now ta qing ma qiao-ing again. heh heh. a sense of achievement? yeahyeah. but then there's a sense of disappointment too. jia parents misundestood me and xuan. dont know why. problems like to come to me in groups. i already tried my best to clarify and pacify. no more strength alr. always and never understood. i suddenly feel that life sucks. (this is not emo ok =x)

after eating went to find dear at busstop. that lazy tree. walk also dont want. zzz. then went to his house. he was emo-ing. hai~ it had been so many times alr. im really tired to face this. DONT EMO ANYMORE PLS?!?!
but i cant blame him for that too. he is feeling too insecure and inferior. just what more can i do?
its getting harder to convince myself about everything. i think i had alr put in 1o1% of my effort. but perhaps it is actually not?


可不可以给我一分钟。让我暂时忘却自己， 逃离现实。
这是厌倦。 这是烦忧。这是已经是到了束手无策的境界了。
闭上双眼是解脱。 挣开双眼是煎敖。
累了是要休息的。

bio results was a disappointment. didnt do well to pull up physics ); sadden. so overall, onl got 47 for science. was really very disappointed can. awww~
badminton was not fun today. cos the wind is blowing everywhere. sian larh. whats the prob.
got back eng paper 1 today. so paper1 and oral is 36/60. zzz i dont know whether is it good. cos, there's still paper2. hai~
emaths overall got 52. finally can pass. but weichiang got 55! wahh~ thats c5 you know. i want );
and still didnt got amaths. dont know the prawn got what prob can. know marks also cannot. zzz rin was really angry larh. cos she is so anxious about it.

after sch, xuan and jia parents got to take amaths paper. its like so redundant. lame larh the school. so stayed with dear to watch they all play bball. damn funny siah. the bjorn kept airball then elwood so lousy. oops =x no offence. dear is still the most good one. hahah.
then he sent me home. ok, i think donny misses him. =x

isnt this cute? its a hp accesory which i sew it myself ok. so good right. that time that love token lost was so sad. now got this substitute. but now i realise, no matter how much effort i put in, he dont care. will your bf ask you to talk to other ppl when you said you want to talk to him? whats the prob. you are always like this. made me wait and wait and wait. so you dont understand the pain in waiting? i do !
and those insecurity times. its not easy for me to pull through. once you told me how important i am to you. but now i am trying so hard to find my place in your heart. cant you just show me you heart?

forget it. enough of him. its getting me so pissed. let me cool down and talk about other thing.


ok, yada died ytd. a significant to the end of love i guess. hai~ she was so small when i first met her on eupho's birthday. see.. i still got her pic ok. was very fascinated cos i love small pets right.


and after massive feeding of pandan leaves, she became so fat larh. LOL' and i still remember i rebuilt her house once right. with windows and doors blah blah. so cute lorh. hai~ but now, no chance to play with her alr. will pay respect to her soon right. with her fav pandan leaves. awww~

YADA, in loving memory.. );

there was a big big rain this morning and i was so gan zhiong. cos my umbrella is with carin!! aww~ so i searched high and low for my sis' one. luckily she went out before the rain so didnt take the umbrella. =x

took combined humanities paper back. ok, so no matter which paper starts first, im still better in SS. hahah~ alert~ so happy can. A2!! =D
then chinese lesson was slacking time. this new teacher dont know pop out from where talk so many rubbish but got no paper to give out. was kinda not happy during chinese. lucky dear is with me.
after that got back physics paper. zz. physics component should be 40 + - . ok larh. got double digit i satisfy alr. hope that bio can pull everything up.

didnt get back eng paper during english. also dont know what prob. she showed us lit marks instead. got 62. i wanted a b3 one. but, nvm, its over.
and i passed emaths paper 1!! 44/80 yay-ness. but this prawn so extra. wanna go through ans. he should let us know paper 2 larh. and when he finally decided to tell us the marks for paper2, that d&t mr tang came in and say wanna distribute d&t paper. wahh piang. its like alr that split second lorh. grr~ i very anxious maths one leah ); now know half dont know half. also dont know know for what. zz

then went comp lab to find ms chin to get back paper. didnt do well for the paper. sucks. overall plus coursework is 62. same as lit. sian~
so after that went kfc with dear and xuan. she gian that since this morning right. dots. and this dear arhh, ordered the spicy bbq chicken. and he says its very spicy he cant take it. LOL! so i helped him eat the last one. dots. his face was perspiring larh. but i dont think its so spicy till this extent leah =x

after xuan left, we walked home. until my house there then i suggest to go his house. LOL' cos i got a feeling he miss me alot =x not trying to be thick-skinned yarh. but he did things that he had never did before today. so i think, i should really spend more time with him? so nonsense. alr reached home still take bus go his house. crazy siah.
so then went home at like 6.
im so excited to know the rest of the papers' results tomorrow! and of cos, badminton too right? (;
and yada.. aww~ sad.

love fade. heart shake.
some things, i guess its better to keep it within yourself.
sometimes, its pointless to say out too.
i hope things would be better.
i hope i wont feel this way anymore.

既然朋友做到这样，那就... (;

woke up at 10 to prepare to set off to harbour front. i know its ridiculous of me to think that melvin would be waiting under my house for me. or at the bus stop. or at harboour front. but i know these are nonsense );

went to busstop. then saw rin. she wants to take 188 to meet ben one first ok. but i see the time its alr 11.10? if she go meet ben first, then sure late one. so i pestered her till she agree to take 963 with me to harbour front. LOL' i didnt FORCE ok. she was willing one. so like eugene called suddenly and said he dont wanna go blah and blah. zzz. wasted my 18mins to talk him round. and some threatens. LOL' so in the end, he was the last one to reach.

took the monorail to sentosa. first time take ok. haas' then off we go to palawan! SILOSO (ley, i not scared pai seh one ;p)
many pictures right?
cos i didnt intend to sun tan, so i spent alot of time taking photos. and i took with everyone. LOL'


this is jiaqi rin and ley after playing in the water? haas' dont know why rin smile until so happy.


my main motive today was sandcastle. i had failed many times before alr. so i was so determined to succeed today. and with the help of jiaqi and ley, (and some small actions by the others), i finally managed to succeed!! happy alert =D
and i brought my small elmo figurine. LOL !!



and this is ley rin and xuan. i think they look like dead corpse. LOLOLOL! no offence arhh.

and this is jiayi posing a twist sign with three corpses. ALERT~!

some random pose?


all thanks to me that their jumps are able to be captured right. i very got skill one ok?

at this point of time, i was thinking, in the morning, in my sleep, he will send me a message and tell me he will be going. i know its absurd. but i just thought so =x naive i guess.

im gonna fulfil the wish i had longed had of building a sandcastle. its a cheer up present to myself right.

combined sci mcq was kinda hard. zzz but bio paper i think can pass.
after paper ben realise he lost his wallet. was there kaobei-ing and suspecting everyone. then knew that was with hongyi. so we went to clementi with him to collect back. then dear sent me home.

he says he wanna play with donny. so brought donny down for a walk. i think donny realli likes him larh. keep turn back and smile to him one. zzz



so was out playing for an hour. donny dont listen to him one. LOL'

later in the afternoon go get the sandcastle set. was really excited about tml's sandcastle making. cos i always wanted one and i wished so much that dear will make it for me.

but i dont know why disappointments likes to hit me when i am feeling so hopeful. dear had a quarrel with his family. and he is not able to come tml. ok, so now i dont know what will happen to me. i was so looking forward to spend some sweet moments with him. forget it, i admit defeat to fate. it always sucks.
and i know i cannot back out tml. i promised everyone. now i really lost my way about tml's event. everything was planned so nicely.

I AM FEELING VERY SHIT. DO YOU KNOW?
rejections are hateful.

had mac breakfast with rin and eugene today. need not go for chinese paper right. then cabbed down to sch cos rin say sure not enough time if take bus. so like the flag down is $2.70 now. the last time i took a cab was still $2.50 leah. then now 25secs waiting time add $0.10. like what siah. reached sch then was $4.50. i never exceed a cab fare of $4 from clementi to sch one lorh. zzz.

amaths paper was actually easily if i got study. but well, dont care amaths alr. sucks like hell. stayed back after paper to study bio. then found out that i lost my learning outcomes. was so angry lorh. that notes is like so important. so went to photocopy jiayi's one. wahh~ i was so. tsk.
studied until 3plus 4 then went home.

deardear said hi to mummy this time. hahah. and he even touched donny ok? hahah. he like donny cos donny i so cute!! (; and donny was barking like nonsense when he left larh. haas' so cute.

bio paper tml. aww~ although got listen in class and should know all the things. but still like quite nervous leah. haiyo~ stress arhh.
and alot of ppl is so excited about sentosa trip. LOL' why?

emaths was a disappointment today. i didnt expect it to be like this. its so different from those tys lorh. i at first still so confident one. but now.. hai~
after paper pei xuan until the chem paper then go. rin and ley went for kfc. so i was with deardear. he was playing seal's entry proof with weichiang. so in the end, i kept it to stop these plays. he dot dare to take cos i put at my pocket. LOL' so like me and dear went up the bus to jurong, i expected weichiang seal and elwood to come up too one. but the door closed. so like, i have no intention to take his entry proof home one lorh. zzz

reached jurong, deardear ask me top up my ezlink card. cos i always put coin he say very ex. LOL'
then walked around in popular. was reading the book about love thingy then i show him those thing that he should know. alert. he very sian that i read. LOL'

so was really boring, nth to do. went to his house. i asked him cook noodle for me cos i hungry. hahah. yay~ deardear cooked for me ok (; watch tv, slack blah and blah. really sian till drop. so went home, went to golden mile complex centre for dinner. there got thai disco one you know? me and michelle was like wth and we saw transexuals. zzz and the smell there is. gosh~
lucky the steamboat place no smell. if not. zzz

so like today is daddy's birthday so we went out for steamboat? mummy and michelle didnt know its his birthday until i told them ok. iyo~ LOL' actually is he last night tell me one. i alr forgotten alr. =x he thick skinned right? dots.
so then we went to the thai supermarket. i bought thai tom yum maggie mee. LOL' thai one sure nice one right. and this supermarket cheat money one. the things so ex. zzz

ok, this is the plastic bag. LOL' there states the 'one and only thai supermarket in singapore' ok. LOL! funny alert.

tml amaths paper. ok, prepare to die. zzz nonsense amaths. aww~ i still miss our love token. sadded );

early in the morning rin got wasnt feeling well. so she asked me to faster rush to busstop? LOL'
eng paper2 was kinda easy. but to her, she have some difficulties cos of headache. so after paper dont wish to disturb her from rest. actually want do maths with her one. lucky i stood firm on my stand arhh. she slept once she reached home and got a high fever now. aww~ poor rin ); exam period.. hai~

so then me,dear,xuan,weichiang, seal went to je. wanted to go library study maths. seal went to his tuition teacher house. pangseh us. zzz
had mac breakfast. like quite last min breakfast hour alr. LOL'
then leslie came and xuan left.
studied awhile in the library. it was damn cold. brr~
then leslie suggested to play bball. so off we went to dear's house (;

jump very high right? see my photographic skills so good. he still say not high enough. what nonsense.

after that hongchuen passed by and then joined them too. haas'


ok, so like the pics quite focus on that thin thin tall tall tree right? LOL'
so like hongchuen left after playing match with some random ppl. haas'
and this is a pic showing leslie and weichiang doing pumping infront of dear.
HAHAHAH!! they lost. LOL'


then went to deardear house to rest. the weather is really super duper hot. wahh~
so when go home, reached dear there derh busstop then realise my hp accesory dropped!! it had alr dropped a few times but still managed to get back. but this time.. aww~ so made dear find it on his way back home. but cant find );
somemore when msging him halfway, my bus flash past and i didnt saw! grr~ so frustrated. so i walked back the route and search again. but really dont have. sure is ppl take one lorh. wahh~ was so damn. i scolded some nonsense and blah blah. deardear was so sad and heart pain. aww~ i i i .. its our love token leah )';
sobsob.


i took this pic with weichiang's phone today. and there it was lost today. this is FATE lorh. grr~ sucks larh. ass.
like taking pic as memory liddat. wth. zzz!!

now the mood finally better. dear said alot of positive things to make me cool down. dots.
and prom night, didnt intend to go one. but mrs koh say until like. .. and mummy daddy said its so ex. yeah lorh. so ex. hai~ going for the sake of others you know. totally no intention and interest one. T_T
and im confident to at least pass emaths paper1. YAY~!

amaths paper1 sucks like hell today. its so darn difficult. i see the questions all blur siah. confirm get single digit mark. last night also didnt study. cos tree was emo-ing larh. iyo~ made me so worried lorh. grr~
f&n was still okok excluding those stupid nonsense ans. can pass larh. LOL'

so like after paper didnt saw dear. he didnt sat for d&t paper. on phone alr then know he went home cos got gastric. zzz at first i dont know was so angry lorh. cos he promised to pei me one leah. zzz.
so went je with ley. she wanna get ther bleach thing. so i pei her awhile then go dear house. she funny siah. cannot find the thing in the end go vivo and tiong. thats like so ma fan right. iyo~ for the sake of a figurine? hmm~
got practically nth to do at his house. watch tv, talk, blah blah. he ate two big strawberry. so like his kiss got strawberry taste one? LOL! alert right.

and today is so slack cos tml is eng paper2 only. YAY~ happy alert.
mother wrote a letter to me today. i wonder how she know i like 亲亲&抱抱 when i think she only know i like 亲亲 ? weird weird. but anyways, the letter is sweet larh. LOL' loves.
and weichiang say that the family will receive a surprise tml? im like so HUHH? why recently the family keep say want give surprise one? but say so long also nth. zzz. i dont know what will pop out tml man. shen shen mi mi one.

now i know why deardear recently so emo. wahahaha. he insecure larh. LOL' deardear jealous look so cute ;p love him lots

things had already come to this extent. raise white flag? or stand on?
because if you leave, i will be left with nothing.
and nothing means the end.

went library to study today. that tree! grr~ went to wrong busstop larh. didnt see my words clearly one. was very angry lorh. cos he didnt even wanna pacify me. he say he want me to cool down first then talk to me and blah. iya~ today isnt a nice day. to hell with all of these.

went back earlier than the rest. tree pacified me. then he go say 'hi' to daddy. LOL' he was so pai seh. ok, this is the funniest thing today. had dinner. not nice, dont like. 8plus went to shengshiong for some shopping. thats my day. boring. im gonna read f&n tb tonight. bye

no go; no love
whatever

overslept today !! i pressed end alarm instead of snooze. mummy shouted and say YOU STILL DONT WANT WAKE UP? ITS 7 !! i jumped out and HUHH?!? you know. lucky it was 6.50 not 7. managed to chiong out at 7.05. wahh~ i very scared all the ss thing in my brains gone you know. so kept trying to calm my nerves down. lucky they are still intact. LOL'

the paper was good (; what i studied came out. YAY~ was still kinda worried if i will study the wrong thing you know. phew~ hope i didnt write out of point =x
lit was kinda sucky. used only two sheets of foolscap. last time i can do better one lorh. i had no idea what i was crapping. couldnt tahan so decided to sleep awhile first then continue. mrs koh came towards me and ask me JIA YOU. hahahah!

after paper went clementi eat sesame oil chicken. rin requested one. LOL'was very full ok. then rin ley and jia parents went bugis. they gian very long alr. hahah. so me and xuan went home. was kinda early when i reached home. very long nv reach home so early liao. dots. and i finished FATHERS AND SONS. yay~

gonna study bio with weichiang they all tml. i dont know if can absorb anot. LOL'


he had changed
but i will adapt.
i just dont wanna take the initiative anymore.
it has been 365days.
time really flies.
i could have still been holding on.
but i didnt.
cos i found you.
show that you care. show that you love me.
thats already enough.

history paper was quite well-done. what i studied did came out! yay. and i finished it on the dot. this is the first time im able to finish history paper you know. so happy larh =D
totally gave up on physics then. break time didnt even study it. hai~ disappointed. the paper was considered easy if you had studied. alot of ppl also say easy lorh. awww~ i feel so sad. like, i could have passed.. zzz

after sch practically had nowhere to go. didnt wanna go study with rin they all cos i didnt brought any materials. asked deardear where he go then he say he going home. ask me go home also. zzz. it was like 1+ ? so early go home also nothing to do right. so he asked me to go his house.

had lunch with xuan at je before going to his house. he went back home first. the noodles was really very filling. both xuan and i finished. its like the first time see her finish a bowl of noodles? LOL'
walk around buy something then headed to dear's house.

sian-ness. was really bored larh. nothing to do. study also cannot concentrate and stuffs. lalala~ read some physics and understand why arent i able to do the paper well today. LOL!

tml SS paper is like so unprepared. i wasnt aware of what topics to study until 2hours ago? zzz. not enough time lorh. and im afraid what im studying is redundant. aww~ i cant get those words into my head! someone help me plsssssssssssssssssssssssssss ??!!
i must throw out history and put in SS ! lit will be a disappointment tml too );

lit paper was okok. although one question went out of point cos didnt comment bout the writer. completed it on the dot you know. wahh. wrote really long and messy =x
after paper went charine chai classroom to take back history tb. phew~ lucky i remember. if not it would be hard to study now man.
break time all of us were eating alot. LOL' dont know why.
then was emaths p2. wahh gosh. skipped Q2 cos i need a long time to think. so continue with the rest. who knows i cant even complete one cycle!! and like everyone said transformation was easier than vectors? dots. i dont even have the time to read the transformation question man. awww~ and Q10 was incomplete. grrr~ feel like dying. suckssuckssucks.
and this jia parents, rin and ley said thay got a surprise to give me. like, so sudden? without any reasons? dont know what they are up to. hmmm.

after sch went to deardear's house to study physics. he promised to teach me right. but but but. its like so hard to listen to physics. sian. i dont think i can rmb everything now. its so so so complicated larh );
so like gave up halfway? he also like teach some than play phone lorh. how can right. so we took pictures right? HAHAH. no fringe boy! bleah~




lalalala~ chionging history now. i want do well in humanities larh iyo~
and i think that stupid treee is sleeping lorh. grr~ nv study history, nv reply me go sleep?!?!? wahhwahhwahh. hymph~

english paper1 was nothing much. couldnt take it at 9am sharp. that was when i count my last words and my head just went down. LOL' was really tired you know. after that stayed in the canteen awhile then headed to batok east CC to study maths. me and rin do not have to take chinese right. LOL' eugene came too cos he dont want take. dots

so went clementi had mac breakfast. this eugene made me treated him one donut. zzz
and i bought the strawberry donut with marshmallows one. very nice you know. yumyum.
the reading room in the CC was really quiet. and really cold too. like library like that. i managed to complete 2 sets of paper2 ok. and i did passed. thats quite relieving. phew~ then elwood and ben came. with ben around, its sure to have nonsense and stupid thing happening one. zzz. dumb still act clever.

then went off to the kopitiam to have some dessert without eugene. i didnt intend to eat but rin say eugene gave her money. dots. so had ice kacang. and, eee the ice kacang not nice one lorh. rin recommended wrongly. was talking to deardear on phone for one hour. but he didnt speak much. like most of the time is hmm arr orh ? zzz. so in the end also hang up lorh. no point wasting his hp money right.

after that rin left with her mother, elwood left for 173. left me and ben waiting for the 963. on the bus, i suddenly realise i forgotten to take my umbrella you know. was there panicking and saying nonsense. this ben said he did ask if i want to return to the place and take. but i didnt heard him lorh. zzz
so he called rin and ask her if she could help. yeah, she said awhile later. but i scared the umbrella is gone alr. till now i have not have any information about it. awww~ my baobei umbrella );
ben will return me one if it's really lost. grr~ he should make me go back and take no matter what lorh. ARGHH.
iya~ disappointed larh. why so careless one.

i no confident in lit paper tml. whatever whatever, i already prepare to do badly for prelims alr. and i suddenly rmb i left my history tb in charine chai's classroom. zzz. tml must tmb to take man. if not i dont know what to study liao. zzz

and i so love mr tree. wahahaha. he say he love me much much much more than loving me alot ok. 1ooooooooooooooooo x more. yay. hahah. he's gonna teach me physics tml. i hope i can understand =x
lalala~ i miss him );

LOL' clipped my fringe up today. rin said i looked forward-looking. so funny. this is to make me wake up marh. one week never wake up so early liao eehh. not used to it. sci practical was hard hard hard. i think i alot wrong lorh. hai~ expected. i only wished i didnt do VERY badly can alr.

the quarentine period was shit. cos we first shift, we goota be quarentined for like 2hours plus? freakingly nonsense larh. zzz. took a small nap on ley's lap. LOL' she complained. lalala~ so like time passes off like that. first shift ppl so ke lian.

then deardear sent me home while the family went clementi to eat? yeah. didnt go with them cos gotta go NUH for checkup. &&& it has been two weeks since deardear sent me home! gosh~ i miss it so much !
and oh yarh, gave him the cute little thing i bought him ytd.


nice right? its a pair. and its so love treee~ heex' he love me he love me (;

rest at home awhile then headed to NUH. did the spirometry test. my results were good ok? the doctor was satisfied. oh yes. and i think my medicine fees like gone up? now i calculate like one month is $45++. last time i calculated was lesser if i still rmb. hmmm, disappointed. after that had dinner at dover market then went home.

its the last day of the 7th month today. so, gotta burn those gim zua and stuffs right. sian-ness. the smoke all those irritates me. lucky one year once. how can we still do all these when global warming is increasing right. no brain one eehh. still keep say save the earth. zzz

before i forget, dear cut his hair real short. it looks funny. hahah. now i can haolian my hair to him alr. LOL' he dont let me take pic today. but i will take it soon right. for entertainment purpose. lalala~ im in love once again !

KNS . CAN YOU BELIEVE I WENT OUT TODAY AGAIN ?

grr~ zzz. parents wanna go angmokio eat. so i bo bian need to go one right. like so shit. last day of hols still haven study yet. the angmokio hub really not bad siah. quite many things to shop. came across this shop which i saw something which immediately makes me think of treeee ~
yes i bought it. for him ? but when i tell him im gonna give him something, he say, 'huh? again?' well oh well, i could actually give it to someone else i guess.

came home at like 5plus. slacked awhile then he msg me say he got a hp number for smses alr. yeah, his hp bill bombed cos of msges. so its better now that he got a number for it? i think my heart is settled down alr.

SEPTEMBER HOLIDAYS - DOWN !!
did nothing but go out, slack, solve problems this whole week.
grr~ i hate september. wake me up when september ends larh.


you were the first boy i had ever bare my heart out and shoot out every little single thing.
it would be funny if i tell people i got a boyfriend.

michelle wanted to go bugis today. so like they kept make me wake up? was ard 12nn that time. i only get to sleep at 4+ this morning lorh. zzz

bought bag and t-shirts. i suddenly got a crave for tees. nice (;
walked at sim lim too to buy some PC stuffs. LOL' didnt saw rin mother and sis though. dots
i think rin is jealous tt she didnt come out. hahah.

when i woke up today, i msged dear cos he was supposed to msg me when he wake up. then like he 4+ then reply? thats like 18 HOURS of sleep he had leah. iyo. this pig. then msg him halfway also can fall asleep one. dont know what happened to him arhh. oh my.. why he so tired );

pictures




&&& i haven studied yet! ass larh. its alr SATURDAY you know. oh my oh my. wanna cry alr larh. i HATE september holidays ! ARGHH~

something to add on.. GIRLS REALLY LOVE TO HAVE THEIR BOY TO SWEETTALK TO THEM. REALLY. its very needed.

The Bottom Line
You have been tolerant of other people's ideas, but it's time to share you own now.

In Detail
If there has been a power tug-of-war going on in your life, today is a good time to grab the rope harder, lean in, and give it a good hard pull -- chances are, everything will come over to your side with a big splash! You have been underestimating your strength, being tolerant of other people's ideas and allowing them to convince you that they have the other hand. You should remind yourself that the only person in charge of where you go, what you do, and who you love is you.

thats today's horoscope reading. pretty true?
and yes, im proud of myself today. everything is over? & cos i know, the only person in charge of me, is ME [;
i wont let things slip off from me anymore. recent incidents made me grew up alot. yes, ALOT.
i aint 16 anymore. 61 i guess?

after reading your last post, i was quite disheartened. i didnt know i would look like this in your heart when misunderstandings happen . sorry for being a lousy friend );
but whatever it is, i always treated you as my best one.

this morning online specially to see friendster's horoscope. for the past few days had been interpreting it. very accurate one leah. i like i like. it should be honoured that i online specially for it right? LOL'
then msn that time like so many ppl come talk to me? all is regarding like kinda same issue? dots. especially when i wanna leave that time all one shot come. the orange light kept blinking larh. made me so late then go out. zzz

so faster bathe and went out go jurong. met deardear first then wait for leslie and weichiang. we were supposed to study today ok. and i was the one who initiated. see my determination? LOL' so like weichiang and leslie were late larh. especially weichiang. he still say he will reach early. zzz. meanwhile deardear was playing the bball at the arcade. i think he is quite good. heex' 300+ points leah. haas'
saw nick and siewhong. papa and mama? HAHAH! their friends let us have their place in the library. so nice of them right. was so crowded. zzz

so, only did like 10+ maths questions? then weichiang say rin coming down to like talk things out. yeah. i wanted it badly too. so like weichiang and dear were very hungry and leslie kept drag our time. he wanna complete more questions. zzz then like both of them were eating their chicken rice real fast? funny alert.

then deardear wanna play pool with leslie cos like he say they long time set one? LOL' yeah. so went k pool. awhile later rin came, so we were like talking outside k pool and kbox? like so funny. talked for quite long actually. and yes, both of us were the first friend we know in tanglin right? isnt it a kind of yuan fen?? LOL' so like, nth will affect us one right? LOL' then shortly after ben came. then they went off.

the guys were alr at their last game. so went to the arcade awhile since weichiang wanna play bball. after that deardear gotta rush to meet his mummy for dinner i guess? then he jiao dai leslie and weichiang to pei me. and indeed. they sent me home. LOL' this is what we call GUYS what right? haas'

YAY, im happy today. cos 3 problems loaded off. left PRELIMS. grrr~ disappointed larh. and deardear caught a flu. awww~ his body seems to be very weak. hmmm. haiyo.
i can anticipate that i wont study tml. LOL' im a fortune teller!! lalala~


and i am so glad that me and rin's problem is finally solved. like, everything was assumptions and misunderstandings? till this point of time, im already very ready to face everything ahead. like, wont avoid, and wont be afraid of face-to-face. i have more guts now. cos i realise, if you dont do something about the issue, nothing will change, and it would deteoriate more. like i said, i wanna be the one who make things happen. ive got enough experiences to prove my guts alr. now like, nth to fear? LOL'
and the root of the cause, yucks. disgusted. whatever it is. i will support her in anything larh. who call us to be good friends right. somemore the very got yuan fen one. LOL' [;

nothing much today actually. didnt went for the steamboat session with all. it should be kinda fun but i dont really have the mood.
and i was like not asked to go for the lit thing in the morning? yeahyeah, was kinda disapointed ok. so not included. i dont think i am sensitive. i rarely feel that alright.

i just freakingly dont know why ppl just dislike to reply my sms. its so no manners larh. lucky in the end deardear did alr. if not arhh.. wahh~

afterall, we are all good friends. yeah. i always treated my good friends with good attitude didnt i?
i am very open in my speech. but why ppl still like to avoid? i dont avoid. someone tell me what are friends for pretty please?
i wanna be the one that makes thing happen. not the one that wait for things to happen.
xuan said, both of us kio smelly sai. yesyes. i totally agree.

wa wa wadever, i just hope to see deardear tml to motivate me to study larh.
its alr thurs. and i haven even started. weichiang too. and he wanna compete results. LOL'

went to school today for science and f&n lessons. firstly was physics. starting that time i really very determine one. not until i saw melvin. really.. i.. i lost focus. i depended on him to teach me physics i guess. ben helped buy mac breakfast for rin ley and me. was quite filling. aft that went for bio. i practically didnt do anything. was spending my time talking to melvin. i lost count on how many days had i been going through these. he dont look me in the eye anymore.

then went to maths resource room cos the rest of the class were there. chit-chatted with them about alot of nonsense. then the guys played soccer. me and xuan went over to the opposite to buy something to eat. then it was f&n. didnt really listen. cos lijun larh. kept talking one. dots!

later on stayed in the canteen also dont know for what. slack, play, sing ? then went home. i really think im fatigue. everytime i got nothing to do and sit on the sofa, i fell asleep. unknowingly. i hated naps all along.
just now also, was watching mummy's show in her room and i fell asleep. i really had no intention to sleep you know. but it is the only way to get you out of reality for a short moment of time. i think im beginning to like 'sleep'. every night, i wait for his reply. knowing that he wont.

and i increased another level in fortune telling skills right. but isnt it quite torturing to be able to anticipate things? there are so many things i wished they hasnt happen. so many things i wished i wouldnt know. but somehow somewhat, there's a force pushing me to understand more. everything is standing nakedly infront of me. this is the first time, i must really put in extra effort to put on a brave front. if you ask me what is the first thing i wanna omit from this world, i would say boy-girl relationships. they hasnt been easy on anyone. hearts are broken everyday.


you were the first boy i dare to bare my heart out and tell you all my feelings
how much i trusted you. how much i wished that you would acknowledge me again
wont you change back to who you were?
wont you let me feel better everytime when my phone rings?
MR MELVIN CHIA, i am already prepared to give you everything.
whereas what i want from you is just a little more love. and, replies

自欺欺人

女:就算忍　
男:守得了秘密還不安心 原諒我　
女:不懂得再怎麼扮幸運 原諒我　
男:我顧慮成罪人　
女:畢竟總有惻隱
男:知感情完了 扮未發生
女:想開口又沈默 想分手 又難受
終於都 欺騙你欺騙我感受
男:還道歉 說我會補救　
女:怎退後
男:對你說謊 表演夠不夠？

女:這次　
男:又再騙你一次　
女:何不狠心一試
男:太害怕令你變得寂寞 每一次
都裝出我好意
女:擔心得我一個 呆坐到六時
男:別妄想
合:你都講過 別懶惰 要說清楚
女:看 我們正對峙
懦弱地逃避了事 敷衍都算關注　
男:瀟灑點結束不等於自私
合:分開方可各自開始
(男:我為何怕事？)

女:不想等是時候 不想拖是時候
真不想 欺騙你欺騙我感受
男:誠實說 我愛你不夠　
女:想退後
男:愛到這刻只得責任　
女:不想佔有

女:沒法拖手　
男:這次　
女:就要揮手　
男:這次 我曾發誓對你好 　
願做你好友 減低一點內疚
女:真心話 我跟你無謂再逗留
男:別妄想你都講過　
別懶惰 要說清楚
女:既決定了告辭 別冒昧來電救治
請收起你心意　
男:瀟灑點結束不等於自私
合:不必假裝血流不止

女:不要　
男:又再詐騙 不要　
女:情深款款
合:不要 留下次處置


suddenly realise this song is like, kinda .. you know =x

waited for his msg since 8am this morning. till 9, he didnt. called for a few times. was so afraid he wont answer. but at last he did. i was relieved. went to his house then. i know i shouldnt ask for him to come?
gave him the one month anni present. he was touched i am sure.

he dont allow me to cry. he finally said that out. he hated my tears. well you dont know i dont like yours either.

accompanied him to dover. he was to go sp for the talk with weichiang and company. maybe he dont know how much i cherished the time i could spend with him.

sciences and f&n lessons tml. whole day siah. sian-ness. and i haven even started revision. shit it. kept procrastinating.

i am bewildered. i dont know what you are thinking at all.
you kept things from me. i tried so hard.
in the past, i could feel your heart beating fast. but,
not now anymore.
you didnt know how much you meant to me.
and i dont know how much i meant to you now.
i am willing to change. are you willing to accept?
cos you said you dont want. so i said i wont cry anymore
how many times had i repeated I LOVE YOU ?
one day would you hold my hands once again?

原点

拥抱的时候
心情有点痛
也许提早感受到寂寞

离开的时候
只听见沉默
除了沉默
我还能怎么做选择

别对我抱歉
别总觉得对我亏欠
现在他在你的身边
就对他好一点
(现在谁在你的身边
就对谁好一点)

不要再让你们的爱
败给了时间
既然遇见了永远
就不要说再见
不要再让你们的爱
输给了永远
我们曾经过那么多考验
最后还是回到了原点

总有那一天
相遇的瞬间
确定那些冷漠的从前
已走远

我应该就走开
就算感情还在
我应该就放开
对他不再依赖
忘了曾有过的片段
这是属于你们的未来

不要看到你们的爱
败给了时间
我能愿选择离别
没有一句怨言
直到你能若无其事
聊起了从前
我才发现彼此都了解
默契是最宝贵的语言


go the way you want.
the past is the past.
future is what we should look forward to.
what are friends for right?
默契是最宝贵的语言

prawn was late today. made us wait for him 20mins. zzz. act big. then halfway through lesson got this person call ben msg me. he wanted to msg someone called sharon then press wrong send until me. so like after we clarify the misunderstanding, he asked if we can be friends since like got fate. i was like.. =.=
since then he had been msging me till now. melvin didnt cared much about this guy. he just said heck care him. i ..
and im MIGHTY CYNTHIA right. fortune teller gonnabe too. ley and rin were impressed!!

then i waited for him to play finish his soccer and send him to jurong. i dont think he misses me. but i misses him like hell. i guess he doesnt care at all. judging by the conversations and actions he gave. i was really turned off. COMPLETELY.

went for long john with rin and xuan. ate a little only. very full. zzz then this rin go meet her 'dar' lorh. zzz
went home chionged the show FATHERS AND SONS. quite nice. then dinner.

he said he would msg me at night to confirm with me the meeting about tml. i msged and i called him but its redundant. i cant believe he would do this to me. i really cant believe..
problems always like to come to me in a bundle. oh heaven, who do you think i am? i aint a superwoman. even a superwoman have her time when she is tired. what about me? i am really fatigue.

my dear, does it makes you smile to torture me like this?
i tried to hug you but i cant
i tried to hold you but i cant
you are standing infront of me but yet you are not who you are anymore
i still believed you. I DID.
even though when your eyes showed me uncertainity, i stood strong.
how i spent my night waiting for your msg.
is this how you requit your love for me?
when i decided to stay with you despite all the worries..
this is how you tell me you love me.
i apologise for being naive. i apologise for telling you I LOVE YOU.
when you dont even bother to take me by the hand, i know where do i stand.

slept only like 5am this morning? was talking to ben and weichiang. these few days, had been spending my nights like this.. i cant let my mind go

went kbox with xuan today. some ppl might be wondering why i spend my anniversary with her right? yes, this is an irony. you should be clever enough to know why.
anyways, i simply love singing. i can vent all my emotions and i can get pretty high while singing.
singing is my passion, my forte.




sang till like 6pm cos i got dinner. but.. tsk. mummy say dont want go the 7th month dinner cos troublesome and stuffs. hai~ i thought i could like spend time there and stop thinking about things lorh. zzz
after accompanying xuan buy her dinner, sat at the busstop took some pictures (;




reach home alr mummy say go central eat. i was like diao lorh. really.. hai~ ate a little only. she scolded me. say i these few days nv slp good and eat good. the face now green green yellow yellow. yeah, tree color marh. not nice meah? dots. anyways ugly then ugly lorh. also nothing to lose liao. i alr lost everything.

anyways, this outfit is specially worn for o2o9o7 one. but that person didnt see it. . .

supposed to be your naughty girl. isnt it ?


my dear, HAPPY ONE MONTH ANNIVERSARY. yeah, happy.
you said you would accompany me on tuesday. and you said thats the first and the last time you would pang seh me. baby, i do trust you even till this time. i look forward to tuesday. dont turn me down. let me decide my fate on o4o9o7. i hate sept hols >='(