was the first to present my speech today. i guess it went well. but still, apple said i said alot of 'erms'. oh well, hope i wont get awful grade.
socpsy class was replaced by consultation. after the consultation, i think i finally saw some light to our research proj. like finally! omg~ i feel so much relieved.
so, stats class today was a bomb. i passed my CT. thats a good thing yeah.
but she said that we are gonna have a Research Symposium in Feb. which means, there will be at least 200 people. a big thing ok. and one of the groups among BZSE would be asked to present on stage. but im sure my grp wont get chosen. LOL =x
this event is coming soon larh. like on 7th? and next wed, 21st would be our research presentation? end of feb would be final exam. i sense stress.
eh no, im already stressed out
had been sleeping till 9pm after watching yu bai. freaking worn out alr. in every aspect.
no one understands. at least the person whom i hoped would understand doesnt.
kinda living life aimlessly now. so out of place. so out of place.
But every time I try to make you smile,
You're always feeling sorry for yourself
Every time I try to make you laugh,
You stand like a stone,
Alone in your zone
Is that too much that I’m askin for?
well, its quite a pity that whatever feelings i blogged down doesnt bring the message across to him. and sadly, even tears cant help. im at a lost of what else can i do.
and i figured perhaps i must make my way out.
but i doubt i can. its the first time that it went this far.
i cant, i cant handle.
its really funny when you know he is reading every single word that you posted but he is not doing anything.
i wished the world ends. at this very point in time.this is an unrequited love. & im losing faith. im losing hope. im losing grip.
but i hope i wont lose my way.
心灰意冷
with love @ 22:33
its weiling's bdae today!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY manxzxz. she is 18. hmmm~ 18 ok.
feeling really sleepy today. i guess i must slp earlier in order to wake up willingly for 9am classes );
hai~ i guess im off to rehearse for my speech presentation tml.
im the first to present and its in the first lesson too. crazyyyy~
wish me good luck );
tell me,
to go for the hard-hearted, or soft-hearted approach?terrible, miserable plus vegetable =.=
i guess i must learn to move on.
有名无实。
with love @ 22:06
first day of school. super reluctant to go );
had POA presentation. we were the first grp! gahh~
classmates and lecturer gave loadsa comments. i think we took almost an hour.
terrible. hai~
after break was spcomm presentation. sadly, there wasnt enough time for me to present. so i'd have to present on wed. omg can. thought that i can settle all presentations today. but now have to worry for wed again. sadded.
gahhhh~ relax cynthia!!
evening went IMM with mummy. since she wanted to do some shopping.
im tired ); but still gotta read some notes for tml. sobsobs
Deep and Meaningless
I, I don't know why I miss you so much
Yeah I, I don't know why I still feel your touch
You, you left me feeling high and dry
With nothing, nothing but the question why
Yeah you, I guess you had another direction
And leaving me with nothing but a dead connection
Chorus:
If you call me today
I'll say that I'm fine
But I bet you can tell by the tone of my voice
It's just a lie
You knew what you had
You still walked away leaving me in this mess
My love for you is deep and meaningless
You, you knew what you were doing to me
And I, I guess I was too blind to see
Well you hit where it hurt and you fooled me so bad
But I'd do it again to relive what we had
(Damn that's sad)
There are many things left to remind me
Of a love that I just can't leave behind me this song totally fits in.
'You still walked away leaving me in this mess' .. .. ..
i looked at couples today. and i looked at myself.
i could have been as happy as them
could havei sigh-ed. . and remembered what justine said.
'feel sad about it, get over it, and move on'
with love @ 22:07
went mabel's house for rehearsal to POA presentation tml.
me and apple missed the stop and we had to start all the way from bishan interchange =.=
mabel's hse is super not convenient larh. grr~
so it was ramly burger for lunch. 3bucks now? LOL means very long never eat alr.
so rehearse rehearse, did POA equiz. thanks mabel loads.
painted our nails while waiting for singyee.
walked j8 awhile and went home
im reluctant to start sch tml.
for the fact that there's a possibility of 2 presentations instead of 1.
faints* super duperlyyyy!!
i tried my best to revive this love.
i stayed happy so that you would be influenced & be happy too.
but nothing i do could bring you back.
nothing i do could make you smile.
there's simply nothing else to do but just to wait and cry.
and now that crying means nothing to you anymore.
what else can i do?
everything looks alright on the outside but badly damaged on the inside.
its only the superficial.
the feeling is beyond words can describe
with love @ 22:22
a day out with rin and xing. cos rin recommended an atas cafe at Dempsey road, Tanglin village. the place there is kinda ulu larh. but nice environment. so rin started to take pics here and there. LOL. took one with her.
she took lots more with xing. hahah
thats PS cafe. quite nice.
so we ordered food for our hi-tea session.
rin's: giant strawberry scones + banana milkshake
cyn's: ultimate fudgy brownie
xing's: banana and mango crumble
he ordered a iced mint tea with something. but not in pic. haha
everything tasted not too bad at first. but as time passes, its getting bad.
xing's mango and banana tastes really weird. especially when it gets to the bottom. goodness.
my brownie has rocky road on top and it tastes really sweeeeett. the marshmellow is not very melty. so i supposed rin's one is the best of the best that we've ordered? cos she never complain. hahaha. so we couldnt finish all our food. xing was really disatisfied with his food and drink.
he gave that sulky face. LOL!! its really funny.
so to past time, we played a silly game. and the forfeit is to eat the leftover food. dots!
then there were embarassing moments. shan't talk about it. if not our faces can throw away alr.
overall, i think their service is not really good? LOL
with the angmoh encounter that we saw also. ratings: 2.5 stars.
i doubt we will go there again =x. ahaha.
then headed to raffles city cos xing needed to get something.
on the bus, rin was living in her 'S' world.
really crazy about it eh.
so when we reached, the place he wanted to go was raffles PLACE. so we walked all the way there. turned out that that shop was closed.
so blahblahblah. reached home at 7plus. its a tiring day.
& i just finished my ppt slides for informative speech. yay.
with love @ 23:03
helped out at convention centre today. for course counselling. so stress. gotta know loadsa stuffs for the different courses in HMS. surprisingly, ley's booth was beside mine! LOL
i wonder did i said anything wrong to those students. grr~ busy busy busy.
its pretty funny. because last year, im those who asked qns about the courses. this year, i answered their enquiries. haa
had duty for morning shift and went for CATS after that.
skipped gym. because all of them are doing so. sad larh. its been long since i went =x abit guilty.
so i was really stunned when kayyong told me that we gotta submit the video assignment in a cd to the pigeon's hole. and i didnt even brought my lappie! so damn can. have to rush home and come back after class. idiot. just my luck to be in-charge of the vid lorh. no one could help me at all. grrrrrrrrr~! met weiling,ronny and juowi at the lib. then handed up assignment.
had a really late lunch. so it became early dinner. poor thing. its a suay day for me.
有说有笑
with love @ 22:16
its the first day of open hse! yes. today im in-charge in the activities/games room of HMS. im the first to reach my booth ok. stupid leader. ok skip that. so i didnt know i must perform magic tricks too. cos i didnt went for the training. but still, i gotta do so. last min learn that trick. and i was really terrified. its my first time! failed for couple of times
failed too, when i was showing the students. so sad can. sobs
but it still got better larh. 'shu neng sheng qiao'.
are you wondering why i must do magic trick? LOL they are using magic to let people understand about my course larh. hee. although i think abit lame but yeah . .
do until hand pain and tired. sian. was hoping my duty faster end.
so these CHS people were treating the room like theirs. holding mics and sing like what. never spare a thought for us ok! grrr~
ate late lunch and waited for glenn to finish last min edits for our video. dateline tml!
but heck alr. since we've got nth else to do to it alr.
ive finished 1.5k essay. yay. cos its due tml too. LOL.
had dinner with dear. 如果你改变不了他，就改变自己。
yesyes, im beginning to see the light i guess.
*can someone buy me a new earpiece =x*
with love @ 22:25
stayed at home the whole day. today was for you. but in the end it didnt seems so.
i'm amazed. by whatever mom said. because they were all true.
why are mommies so formidable? they seemed to know everything that will happen.
i let them fall off my ears. that's why im suffering these now. its too late. its too late.
it's been a week. how long will this last? how long can i take? im losing it. im losing it.
I gave you all you desired
All that you needed
Boy, I provided
I let you into my head
Into my bed
And that’s a privilege
I had your back at the answers
You took the dollars
I took the chances
Defended, battled and fought
Cuz I thought you really loved me
I don’t know where to start or where to stop
No, but I know I am done
I’ve had enough
but im still a girl no matter what. 太傻了.
with love @ 22:24
had NP open house briefing this morning. i think it's really redundant though. zzz
i aint at all, looking forward to friday's open house. instead, the thurs one. anyone coming? hee.
then had CATS meeting. at least we started abit. heard others haven even started at all. maybe we a lil kiasu larh. but whatever. ahaha. then had lunch at Makan Place. new lunch place alr. LOL
i dont know he just dont seem to agree with whatever i said about that place.
2pm was project debriefing. seems like i made a fool out of myself. all laughing at me. sigh~
perhaps, i was really funny.
chionged Last One Standing when i reached home. im done with this 22 epi drama. but the ending is abit sucky. i guess there would be part two. irritating! i hate the antagonist.
我在搞笑 借着热闹 掩盖着心跳
边哭边笑 偏要说着 一个人真好
当人群散了 突然觉得我可以死掉
我受不了
with love @ 22:06
there's so much i want to pour out. but i have no idea where should i start with.
i'm hating 2oo9. it's not the year for me. got a bad omen that all the bad stuffs will happen this year.
but i must be strong. because im turning 18. i
must.
& i wonder why flu loves me so much
it has been 5days. but nothing's going right.
there's nothing i could do.
how long would this carry on?
i hope something good will happen.
with love @ 22:17
dearest xuan bought me a heart-shaped locket which i yearned for 738473276 years.
but, perhaps i wont even have the chance to use it? haa.
Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered now it hurts
Haven't I always loved you?
But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause you're only almost here
with love @ 22:51
最后一次拥吻是几时？
im beginning to hate myself.
because im becoming more and more like a 小女人 as time goes by.
at least im sure i dont used to be like this.
but now.. haa, i have no idea anymore.
anw, thank you sista.
with love @ 00:31
stayed at home today. finished half of my socpsy essay! at least i did not waste a good saturday.
started watching 'last one standing' too. so nice. i guess im gonna chiong like mad.
i think i still haven tune to the 2009 mood. i have no newyear resolutions
ahh~ whatever. i want some twister fries.
我很想知道我们之间的变化。
with love @ 22:17
finally our video is settled. now that's left with are the subtitles and edits. but for our SPSS.. sigh~ we seriously need help.
had early dinner with apple at Makan Place. 'one pot'! hahah. tom yum still rocks as always (:
and we ate oreo cheesecake too. so yummy!
i imagined myself at Thai Express today though.. but well.
saw the pri sch kids dismissing from sch when walking home. so cute! and all the fond memories surfaced. haas'.
& i'd tried very hard not to remember that today is the 2nd.
with love @ 22:02
when you're crying alone,
no one will lend you a shoulder.
no one will give you a piece of tissue.
no one will pat you on the head.
just continue crying and say nothing.
with love @ 00:51
YESTERDAYit didnt started off well. cos of dear. he got some family unhappy stuff. so he had been giving me the attitude and face. it affected me so much =.=!!
so met xuan in the late afternoon to bring her to Mustafa. she had been pestering me for it. she hasnt been there before. hahaha. so, walked walked walked. this time i walked longer than the other when i went with rin&ben. after much hesitations, she decided to get the 2GB Toshiba Thumbdrive which cost $9.90? but due to the carelessness of the staff there, she got the
8GB CRUZER wth?!?!!? that cost $30 ok. wahh seriously. its either i brought luck to her cos this happened for the second time. OR, i really have some affinity with indians.
LOL. i know. went back to clementi to meet the rest for steamboat-countdown.
it was supposedly to be 10 ppl. but. only 6 turned up. for whatever reasons that they gave. gahh~ and we bused down. we spent 30mins waiting for it. sian.
missed one stop and we walked damn long to our destination. turf city is really far from the bus stop ); we went for ChongPang 2-in-1 steambaot which was at the utmost end of turfcity. =.=
im sorry guys.. i didnt know its so far.........
eat,chat,chill. there wasnt loads of ppl there. maybe cos we were really late. about 10pm. hahaha.
we bought a cake. supposedly to celebrate those people whose bdae falls on Dec. but.. haas'
it'd be a contradiction if nonsense starts coming out.
celebrated only shannon's instead. zzz but im glad she enjoyed herself
i think she really did.
so there was a tv there showing the vivo countdown. all of us counted down along too. and all the working aunties there shook hands with us wishing Happy New Year. its really funny!
went off at 12plus. rin,xing and non headed to town while the rest of us went home. no bus, so cabbed. and i guess i was feeling unwell. with the tummy upset and nauseous feeling. sad.
last and this year's new year wasnt really happy. i want next to be a really good one. i mean REALLY GOOD.
TODAYhad late brunch at YunNam Garden Restaurant at NTU alumni club. it was dimsum. the service attitude of the waitresses were really bad. super irritating. and i think the meal wasnt that worth it. even though aunt has discount. oh whatever. then headed to JPextended. since daddy mummy and michelle has not been there. i seriously have a fetish for Artbox notebooks now ^^
heeeee. like..
all ? so the adults wanted some coffee. settled at Oldtown White Coffee. long Q with cramp place. bad service and long waiting time. ate abit too. ordered the curry chicken with toast which cost $6.50. and we got ourselves a pathetic bowl of curry with only ONE chicken drumstick. a small one indeed. with 3 thick not-nice toast. wthhhhhhhh.
the chocolate ice was little too. that high tea costed $32. sian. i think thats absurb. the same food in some kopitiam will cost only half. or even lesser. #$&%$#
all the food places we went today were really bad. so suay.
left at about 7. *the personalised cake at The Icing Room* awwww~
it should be soon. i hope.
a bad start for 2009. this whole year will be bad too. haaa. that's what xuan said.
but anyway, my blog just turned 2. LOL so young. but whatever.
'happy newyear. and may you chionged all your assignments before sch starts :p'
with love @ 22:27
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